Mayb it's jux wt i deserve

Mayb it's jux wt i deserve..

she's a gd fren but she seems to change a lot..

but tis is her choice..

mayb it's jux simply wt i deserve..

tt she wanna revenge back..

or mayb i'm jux thinking too much..

but y izzit always happening..??

she thinks tt i'll b jealous of her..

but i'm nt..

i dun like to b jealous n i won't jealous..

my heart is being broken into pieces by her so deeply until i really dunno how to face it..

haix~.. 

does she hate mi so much..??

wt had happened to her..??

i thgt she was e most intelligence n kind gal..

i always felt so happy to hv tis fren..

but y is she treating mi like tis..??

does e prob lies wif mi..??

where did i do wrong..??

y do i suddenly feel so helpless..??

n i can't bring myself to b happy in front of my frens..

i dun feel like gg out..

i dun feel like meeting my fren..

everything seems to b bcm so boring n i hv lost interest in almost anything..

how..??

wt should i do..??

wt is happening to my life wif my frens..??

am i gg to leave tis sch wif so many sad experience so many hurting memories..??

or could i hv think too much..??

mayb my fren is v gd to mi..

n dey jux dunno tt wt dey hv done has cost tis much pain in my heart..

or mayb dey did nth wrong..

mayb i'm too sensitive..

but everytime when e prob seems to b gone..

it come agn..

2 yrs..

2 yrs..

2 yrs of agony..

when will it stop..??

is tis a kind of punishment..??

i've try to change my grp of frens..

nw tis one i scarifice a lot..

she wan mi to acc her to any place..

i will sacrifice my time to acc her..

even tt time when we r having our exams..

i still acc her to take sth..

but she seems to take mi for granted..

when it's my turn to ask her to acc mi..

she dun wan..

she jux wanna watch her drama series..

nt tt i doesn't allow her..

but gradually i will nt wanna call her out..

wt's e prob in mi wif my frens..??

is tis wt i get from treating my frens gd..??