Joy like a fountain

I'm having fun as usual at the centre with the children. But in the morning and after work, it was very tiring because Miss Winnie want me to put up the concert photos. In the morning, I do halfway thank God Huang lao shi came to help. After work, I did it alone! I sweat even it was raining so heavily! Good work out. HAHA! I have already did this for 2 days, I don't know how long I have to do this. God please help me!

Mrs Lim took leave for the whole week, without her the class is like in a mess. Luckily today got fewer children. In the morning, T class still came fight over sitting on my lap. The T class children are so adorable. After that, the K1 learnt from the T class. They want to sit on my lap too. HAHA! So cute! I love them so much. Some of them randomly just called me mummy! HAHA! So funny. Then Josh kept coming to me to hug onto my like a panda. He even asked me to carry him which is impossible. First, he is too tall. Second, he is too heavy! I don't have the strength to carry him.

The children like to talk nonsense and their action and their words are so funny. Sometimes it just make me laugh and I can't scold them when I'm supposed to. They are so naive and adorable. What happened today was so funny that I burst out in laughter. When we are playing some games which needs the brain a lot, it was very difficult until even I can't solve some of it. The children kept complained to me that it is very difficult and everyone of them want me to help them. Xavier wants to help his friends so he when to help Claire. Then he said something in chinese, "Lai2, zhe4 zhong3 dong1 si1 nan2 ren2 yao4 hui4 zhou4.(Come, this kind of things man must know how to do.)" HAHA! So cute! He is only a 5 years old boy and he in this manner.

I really thank God for giving me so much joy in working for him. I never have this kind of joy when I was working. I find that I like it a lot when I'm working in a Christian environment. Although there is stress, but at least I can handle it. Thank God loads!!!:)

Gift from God

Today got nothing much to post about. Still happens a lot of things but lazy to type down so many words. Just a quick one. In the morning we don't have assembly again due to the HFMD. T class is combined with K1 to play toys. Then 3 of the T class children kept wanting to sit on my lap. They are very very very very x1000000 adorable! Qing Nian already sat on my leg, but Dario wanted to sit on my lap too so he sat on my leg which is very pain. Giselle also wanted to sit on my leg but Qing Nian is already seated on my lap. Actually Giselle she sat on my lap first but she got up so Qing Nian went to sit. When Dario sat on my leg it was painful so I said one at a time. But he just doesn't want to listen then Qing Nian pushed him away saying, "Miss Tan said one person can sit on her leg!" HAHA! So cute!

Regene from the K1 always find me in the morning. When she found me she will keep on talking to me. HAHA! So cute! She kept saying that her favourite teacher is me. HAHA! Manfred today suddenly cried because he wants his parents. So poor thing. He is a very very good boy. Both Jovan and him always listened to the teacher. His partner didn't come so he kept holding my hands. When we watched movie he moved to sit with me. Then he will tell me about the movie, like what will happened next. HAHA! So cute! These children are so adorable that each day my love for them increase loads and loads. They are indeed the gift from God. Play, talk, eat, sleep with them, teach and bathe them make me felt like having a baby soon! HAHA!XP

Walk worthy of our Lord

Sermon title: Walk worthy of our Lord
Key Scripture: Colossians 1:10-14
Preacher: Rev (Dr) Nina Khong

Acts 27:23
~4 ways to walk worthy of our Lord:
1) Being faithful in every good work
*verse 10
Serve God!
The Lord wants each one of us to be fruitful.
John 15:1-2 & 8

2) Increasing in your knowledge of God.
Know God.
The more you know about God, the more you want to serve Him.

3) Be strengthened by God's power
*verse 11
Do what the Holy Spirit has bring us to do.
~Why are we strengthened by God's power?
It is to produce endurance.
Endurance is "staying power".
"Never give up! Never give up! Never! Never! Never!" ~Sir Winston Churchill

4) Give thanks to the Father
a] Qualified for the inheritance
*verse 12
b] Delivered from darkness
*verse 13
c] Redemption through Jesus
*verse 14

Lady of Devotion

Now I'm at the 5th chapter which is 'Lady of Devotion'. It says about being wholeheartedly devoted to God by spending all our free times with Him. Come before God with a whole heart, clean heart, pure heart and a listening heart. After I read this, I want to spend loads of my time with God during my single time. Even If I'm married, I still need to try my best to spend time with God alone. I did the quiz and I'm under the 'INTIMATE FRIEND (More than 31 points)'. It says that:

You have found the one your soul loves. You spend a lot of time talking with and listening to Jesus, and these times are not an obligation but a joy. You cherish your relationship with Jesus and are thankful for this season of life and the freedom you have to devote so much time to Him. Your Bridegroom delights in your pursuit of Him, and He will reward you with the goodness and pleasures of His presence. No matter what your life brings, married or singles, you will do well because you have found the lover and friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Seek peace when you disagrees

You may have disagreements with a friend from time to time. When that happens, ask God to help you be the peacemaker and make the first move. Putting other friends in the middle generally makes the problem worse. It's best to pray and ask God to give you the courage to go to your friend and see if you can talk through the disagreement.

(Friendship by Paige Jeary)

Hallelujah!

I quite enjoy my stay at N class already, but still a bit lost when I'm in that class. Next week I won't be with the N class anymore. Anyway, they celebrated Jin Yew's birthday which is Jin Hui's younger brother. So I stayed behind until quite late. There was a skit perform by the Health Promotion Board and I missed it because I was with the N class celebrating birthday. The children enjoyed a lot. Haha!

In the morning, the K2s always have the same problem. They want to disturb Joseph by destroying his toys. Joseph irritated by them, wail and wail not cry. This kind of crying is unbearable. When I was pissed off by them I told them that if they don't want to play nicely with I will tell Zhou Lao Shi and on Monday they will not play toys. Their reply was 'Huh~ why'. I said all of you must share toys. Then in the end nothing happened. HAHA! During breakfast time, the boys from K2 said I'm pretty teacher! HAHA! It all started because of Darren's comment on my blouse. I was wearing this white shirt with loads of 'sexy girl' words. Then they said Javier and Zitane said I'm fat fat teacher, because I'm very thin and they don't want to say I'm thin. HAHA! This kind of logic also can. Nowadays children are very smart, they even know how to tell lies!

K1s are starting to listen to me already, but not Xavier who is very naughty. Still, I love everyone of them and I'm thinking of what to buy for them during Christmas. Although I scold them they still like me too. A few of them wanted me to sit with them but I can't split myself up so I just sit wherever I can find a place. When I'm in N class, they kept asking me how come I'm not in their class. HAHA!

After nap time, I went with the lao shi to wake the K1s up. When I wake Caleb up, he started to throw tantrum then I know that I must be careful of him already. It's because when he throw tantrum, he will beat me but it's not pain. Reached classroom, Eason who is not feeling well sit there with Caleb. Both of them doesn't want to move. Eason just stays there no matter how I pull him up. Caleb cry whenever I asked him to go and keep his things. I have no choice I let them be and tell lao shi.

Then I take pity on Caleb who kept on crying and crying. It's very saddening to see children crying or having the sad face. As usual I tried to comfort him no matter how he try to reject me. After awhile he is ok with me already then he started to want me to stay with him. When I want to walk away, he stretched out his hand to ask me back. I don't like to leave children disappointed and he is such an adorable boy. When I walked away when he isn't noticing, he started to cry very badly and want me to come back. He kept saying I want you, at first he was saying I want mummy. HAHA! So cute! I tried my best and I prayed to God for help. God helped me! Actually he doesn't want to do his work but when I said if he doesn't want to finish then I'm going home. Same thing happened, he cried and show me that 'no' sign by waving his hand. After a while I succeeded, he finished his work! What a miracle from God, usually he don't finish. Hallelujah! He is so lovable! After he finished, he hugged from behind and then I hugged him back properly. So so so so so so so CUTE! When he is happy, he will smile at me and show me that kissing face. HAHA! After that I stay until his mummy came, that means I secretly volunteer one hour. HEHE~

Joy to the world, all the boys and girls!

I always wanted to post about this but kept forgetting. When I went to Korea for the prayer trip, I prayed that I will get a wonderful job that will suit me and also I will be bold and brave. After a few months, I found a job from God and also I'm not timid anymore. Sometimes I might be shy but I am still very brave to do things now. I'm really thankful that God has answered my prayers. Hallelujah praise God!

In the morning during their breakfast time, one of the Indian boy, Rohan from N class suddenly told me something that shocked me. He said something like, "Just now when a chinese prayer, I saw a ghost." He doesn't really know how to speak English. I was speechless when I heard that and I started to pray for him silently. Poor child. I hope that God's presence will always be with him so he won't be scared.

I have been with the N class in the morning for 2 days already. It's because Li Hui lao shi is not working in the morning until 1000. Although N class children are very adorable, I can't really play with them and talk to them. It might be because I don't really know them. Today is my 4th time with them only. They are easy to teach and they will listen to you. Most of the K1s can ignore you when you speak to them! So horrible! Tomorrow morning still have to be with them. I don't really like it but it's a way of serving God and next year they will become K1 too.

One of the boy, Eason, still show an action that he wants to beat one of the teacher. So naughty! But amazingly he will listen to me. Both Dao Jun and Eason likes to attract the teachers' attention. Let me talk about Eason first. Whenever I'm in his group, he will say he can't do this he can't do that. He likes me to hold his hand to do whatever he is being instructed. When I asked him to do it on his own, he will complain that he don't know how to do and kept wanting me to help him.

Dao Jun uses a different method. He likes to put his face very near the teacher's face and smile very widely. It's a good thing to smile but he just get to near to my face sometime. I'm scared that he will accidentally kiss me! HAHA! There is one time when Manfred sit beside me and talk very happily to me. He saw that and wanted to get my attention by smiling at me very near my face. Both of them are very naughty and I guess they need loads and loads of love. They might not be receiving enough love from their parents. It kind of make me want to love them more.

The K1s are very cute, when they saw me they kept calling out my name. Then some asked me will I go to K1. HAHA! Regene told me that her favorite teacher is me and also she likes me. HAHA! Manfred and Yi Jie kept wanting me to seat with them. Then Caleb suddenly asked me to pat him. I guess he likes me to pat him to sleep after yesterday. While I pat him, I sayang him, I think he likes the feeling.

When the children saw some insect, like today they saw cockroach, they are very interested and will keep pointing at it and say, "Cockroach! Cockroach!" One of the boy is even smarter, when the person is coming to spray the insecticide, he said, "Later confirm got cockroach." HAHA! So smart. Children are the gift from the Lord. They brings us loads of joy!:)

LOVE

Today I did something that I don't really like. It is also my first time doing it. It is too punished the children on my own. Although it may be a correct way in teaching the children to be obedient, but I don't like to punish the children. I don't like seeing them having that sad or crying face. Well, after a while I will forgive them.

Zhang lao shi told me that Regene is finding me in the morning. After her parents have left, she ask Zhang lao shi where am I. HAHA! So cute! When I heard that I go and find her and hug her. When I was talking to her, Grace came and hugged me. So cute right?! I really really don't want to scold them because they are so lovable.

Caleb today is quite in the good mood. He kept wanting to me and when I scold him, he is smiling and wants to play. He didn't throw tantrum, which is a miracle. Thank God if not it will be difficult to handle him. During nap time, as usual he is not sleeping unless someone 'force' him to sleep. I used very good method that God gave me. I said to him, "Caleb good boy must sleep. So that later when you wake up Miss Tan can play with you. Do you want to play?" Then he said yes and he quiet down and try to sleep. I like to sayang his head while I pat him to sleep. I love him a lot despite his behaviour to me.

While patting him to sleep, it started to rain. Then he suddenly told me, "When it's raining, I will always imgaine Jesus pouring water on the clouds." He is sooooooo cute! Even though he is young, 5 years old, he is thinking of Jesus! When it's raining, I didn't even think about Jesus. I should think more of him, let my mind be constantly filled with him alone. I really love the children a lot! I should show them more of my love.

Ok, I should go to sleep now because it's already 2329! Just came back from prayer meeting and I'm really sleepy and tomorrow have to get up at 0610! God bless everyone who is reading my blog. Ciaos!:)

God please help me!

In the morning I was being pushed by Caleb again. I was hurrying him to put his bag inside and wash his hands, but he pushed me and said his stomach pain. Then I said you come in then I help you put medicine, but he ignore me. So I left him alone and he went in himself. After nap time, when I want to wake him up, he kicked my leg! He is so violent! I'm really scared of him but I want to show love to him. God please help me!

Darren brought a letter for Ms Low to read and he want me to read, because it's written to every teacher too. Inside the letter, it said about visiting Ms Low. Then I asked him will he visit me. He think for awhile then replied, "No.(Smiling sheepishly) Because you all always scold me." I said, "Ms Low also scold you." But he said, "No. Ms Low put in the thing(which I don't know what thing) say I excellent excellent excellent." HAHA! He is so cute!

I'm still coughing very badly. Should I consider taking medical certificate for a few days? I can take care of the children when I'm coughing so badly. Lord, please heal me completely by today! Thanks!:)

I have nothing much to say about today. There is too many things for me to post, if there is any interesting one I will post it.

God's Holy presence

I finally know what's the reason why I haven't receive my pay yet. For some reason they have to combined my last month's pay with this month's pay. Well, today I work until 6pm! I like it a lot! I don't mind starting work very early and ending work very late. As long as I get to interact with the children I'm fine with it. I finally borrowed the book that I want, 'The five love languages for children'. I'm going to learn and show love to every children so that they will feel secure over at the centre.

Regene nearly cry in front of me. She was sitting at a corner quietly looking out of the window. I asked her why she don't want to play with the others, she said she want her daddy to stand at the window there. When she is about to cry, I try to engage her to play with me. Thank God, she didn't cry and very quickly she forgets about it. Today I really want to thank God a lot of things that he has helped me with. There is too many small and big miracles that He has blessed me with. I really felt peace the whole day.

Morning devotion's key verse encouraged me, even though it's a verse that I heard before, it encourages me today. When I was very hesitant to ask Mrs Lim, the supervisor about the book that I want to borrow, suddenly the Holy Spirit talks to me. He reminded me the verse immediately. The verse is marked out from 2 Timothy 1:6-7: "Fan into flame the gift of God...for God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." The Holy Spirit encourages me and told me not to be so scared because He is with me. Thank You Holy Spirit!:)

When Jesus is Lord, we will serve Him

Sermon title: When Jesus is Lord, we will serve Him

Key scripture: Colossians 1:24-2:5

Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong

Rev (Dr.) Nina Khong's preaching:

Key scripture: Colossians 1:9-10

1) Discern God's will

Colossians 1:9

2) Do God's will

Colossians 1:10

Are you focusing only on the temporal things and neglecting the eternal things?

Are you asking God only for the superficial things and neglecting the greater things?

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1) It is a ministry that Costs - Filling up the suffering of Jesus.

*verse 23-24

It is not a religious pastime to serve the Lord, it must be a passion and be prepared to suffer for Christ.

Giving birth is not fun but you will still do it for the babies' life. It is the same to serving God. It is not fun but you have to do it for Christ and the lives of others. So when you serve God there will be joy.

2) It is a ministry of Changing Lives - Presenting every man perfect in Christ.

*verse 28

Perfect is maturity in any circumstances.

3) It is a ministry of Endless Struggle - Total dependence on the power of Christ.

*verse 29

2 Corinthians 4:7-12

Keep serving God until you die, even when you are dying.

The Bible said those who lose their life for Jesus, gain it.

Lady of Virtue

Did the quiz of the next chapter. This time round I'm not at the more than 31 points. I'm under the "LONGING FOR MORE (17-31 points)" It's quite saddening but it encourages me to be more like God. To be a more virtuous woman. It says that:

You know the inside matters more than the clothing you wear or the way you style your hair. You know that good guys care about more than appearance and that you wouldn't really want to be with someone who was appearance-oriented, but you haven't met many guys who fit that description. You wonder if they really exist and, if they do, whether you'd be good enough to catch one. So you find yourself trying to look beautiful, just like the other girls, but so often feeling empty on the inside. Jesus wants you to remember that He is your bridegroom, and He longs to see the beauty of godly character formed within you. He promises you that the more you cultivate virtue, the more fulfilled you will be. No longer will you feel defined by your physical qualities, but by your relationship with God and His goodness flowing through you. You will find the joy of inner beauty-and (whether you marry or not) you will discover that godly men are far more attracted to the pearls of inner beauty than to the costume jewelry of outer beauty.

Hug, hug, hug!

First thing in the morning, I was greeted by Angel from T class by hugging me. It is good when you received love at the start of the day. Although I received only one while Huang lao shi received loads, I still felt loved. HAHA! They are forever so cute no matter how naughty they are.

Everyday is a wonderful day with the children. I'm an English teacher so they are supposed to speak English to me. Then when I speak Chinese, Stella asked me how come I know how to speak Chinese. She is not the first person to ask me that already. They are so cute! HAHA! They thought that English teachers only know how to speak English and Chinese teachers only know how to speak Chinese. HAHA!

The children likes to bully me because whenever I'm alone with them in the music room, they will start to make noise. Sometimes I'm really tired and I just let them do what they want while I try to quiet down some children. The worst thing is when it comes to special needs children. I don't even know how to handle them and I can't expect them to be doing the same thing as the other children.

I was being put with the children to play toys that can make lots of different things to play. So I teach them those that they don't know and also do some for them. I made a dinosaur and they like it a lot so one boy, Manfred, asked me to teach him. After that he put both mine and his dinosaur together and said both of them fall in love! HAHA! I laugh and he also laugh. He is so adorable that I felt like hugging him. I should hug them everytime I see them. That's it! I'm going to hug them starting from next week.


The above picture was taken to show what I'm going to talk about. Joshua, Caleb's elder brother, was very fascinated by this lacy clothing at the back of my top. He kept saying it is very beautiful and he want to see and touch it. While I was at the toilet hurrying the children, he suddenly came and hugged me from the back. I thought he was his brother, Caleb and nearly ask him to go wash hands. He just want to see and touch the material. So cute right?

When I was going home, I saw him lingering outside the toilet. He saw me and our conversation started:
"Bye bye Miss Tan!"
"Bye, how come you are here?"
"I'm waiting for you to walk out."
"Why?"
"I want to see you go out."
"HAHA! Go in. Go in."
"Monday will you wear this?"
"No! HAHA!"
"Monday I'm not coming. Are you coming?"
"Oh. I'm coming. How come you are not coming?"
"Huh~Next week can you wear this?"(Totally not answering my qns)
"HAHA! OkOk, see you next tuesday. Bye bye!"
"Next tuesday? Ok bye bye!"
After that he when I walked out, he didn't go in and sit down. Most probably standing there watching me walked away. HAHA! He is so adorable. Should have hug him:)

In the morning, he also came and asked me why I didn't go to his class. His classmate, Toh Jing also asked me why. HAHA! It's not that I don't want but Miss Clarinda is back. They miss me and I miss them loads too! HAHA! Everyday is a great day at work. With God's love, everything is so wonderful. When you are being loved, you will know how to love others. When you love others, you will be loved. So always LOVE!

Caleb is a funny boy. He can be very scary and very loving too. After lunch, everybody has left for nap time except for him. He was the last one. After passing urine he suddenly said, "Miss Tan! I want to pass motion can you wait for me at the step there?" I replied, "HAHA! Yes!" When I stand there, he asked me one weird question again. "Miss Tan, how come your mouth so small?" HAHA! He is so so so so so cute!

Correct in Love

"Wounds from a friend can be trusted..." (Proverbs 27:6). A true friend will tell friends when they are wrong, but ONLY with the strong motivation of love. It may not be easy, but it's the right thing to do. Be sure to pick the right time when you are alone to lovingly point something out to your friend. And be grateful when a friend does the same for you!

(Friendship by Paige Jeary)

Very happening

I just realised that I have been attached to the K1s and also this week was supposed to be my duty for nap time! I didn't know that until today. How can I?! But at least I know now, next time I will be more careful. Today was very happening.

First thing in the morning, I was being bullied my the children. As normal, the children won't listen to me unless I scold them very loudly. I saw this boy, Shi Xuan opening his pencil box to show me his new pen and Caleb saw it. Curious Caleb want to see so he went chasing after Shi Xuan for that pen. I tried to stop Caleb but end up being squeezed by him on my hand. He was very violent when he looked at me. I was scared so I let go the situation and go away. He can be very good to me and also very violent to me. Honestly, I'm scared of him.

After that I was sent to follow K2 because they are having field trip to Hougang mall to have their lunch at MacDonald and shopping at NTUC. They said that NTUC is Aunty Lucy, because the sound is similar. HAHA! Don't know what lead this girl, Xuan Hui to say something very funny to me. She said, "Miss Tan, you very funny leh, you like children like that." HAHA! She is so cute! I might be behaving like a children, but when she said that I'm quite happy because I'm being child-like. HAHA!

Until now I still haven't received my pay for last month and I kept forgetting to ask! I kept reminding myself that I have to remember but when I stepped into the centre and I start to do work I will forget. Lord, please remind me that I should ask them and give me the right time to ask. Thanks!:)

Fulfilling day

In the morning I was laughing and laughing at the children. The K2s are so smart and so cute. The toys are those construction toys which is flat one. The children used that to make bag, cup, teapot, earphone which those dancers use, and even walkie-talkie. The are so creative and intelligent. They saw their form teacher using the walkie-talkie on sat then they want to make one. Their action make it even more funnier. HAHA! Next time should have my hp at my side so that I can take their photos. Wasted!

Every time in the morning, one of the boy called Dao Jun from the K1 class will come and ask me which class will I be in today. I always replied don't know because Mrs Lim can just randomly put me inside a class. But this week she kept putting me in her class which is K1, I love the K1s too. They are very very cute but very difficult to handle. It's because there are too many of them and they are all so energetic.

During nap time, the minute I'm left alone, the children start to walk about, run out and also talk and play. They know that I won't punish them and they are testing my limit. I tried to tell them to all lie down but nobody want to listen to me. So I was very angry and I shouted at them, and all of them quickly lie down and was quiet. But after a few moment they start again. Zhang lao shi said they children are like this one because I'm new they like to bully me. HAHA! So I guess after 2 months I won't be bullied?

After nap which is their tea break, while I was settling everybody down and also see whether they are all eating their food or not. Then I saw Caleb's legs not down, so I went over to ask him to put down. But he doesn't want to listen so I squat down and push his legs down. He didn't do anything but showed me that kissing face. HAHA! So cute! He can be very cute and also very naughty. Today Zhi Kang (Special needs child) cried and he comfort him. He even told me that Zhi Kang is his family. So nice!

Tea break was nice because they have my favorite cupcake. I was planning to stay for awhile until 1730, but it was raining very heavily. So I stayed until 6plus!! Huang lao shi asked me to write down the time which I'm going off, but I told her it's ok and I can volunteer myself anyway it's raining. So good to be able to help them out when they are busy. Today was meet-the-parent session. Tomorrow there is no work! Am going to miss the children.

I'm being bullied!

I'm being bullied by children! The children are hard to manage in K1, when they are not scared of you, no matter what you said they will care less. In the morning when I was looking after the K2 class. I heard Shawn said to Joshua, "Let's move to some place far from Javier." I scolded him for saying that and also asked him to play with Javier. While I was scolding him, Javier run to hide behind me, I thought he was just hiding but who knows when I pulled him in front, he was crying! So poor thing! Shawn and Joshua always like to bully the children, they are so naughty but yet at the same time very cute.

There is a lot of time they join forces to bully Joseph. Joseph because of that, went to hide his toys behind the door. But I asked him to take out and go other place to play. He said, "Cannot! They want to destroy my toy!" No matter how he persist, I refused to let him do that. It is too dangerous to play behind the door. When I was not looking, the boys went to disturb him again and he cried. I went over and he blame me by crying, "It's all your fault!" I felt sorry for him but I can't let him hide there. Then when the boys said, "He said it's your fault." I scolded them back, "Yah! My fault! Who asked you'll to destroy his toys?!" I think they are scared because I'm angry already, so they kept quiet and went else where to play.

During nap time, when Huang lao shi have some things to settle and also Miss Clarinda went to the toilet. The minute I am left with the children, they started to walk around and making noise. I tried to ask them to sleep but they don't want to listen to me. I have choice but to attend to those children who came to me for medication. I'm tired of children bullying me. How to stop it?!? I tried to be fierce but the children are too cute to be fierce at. HAHA!

After that I was with the K1 for the whole day. After nap time when they need to wake up, Caleb was the last one to wake up. I tried my best but he is still sleeping. I try using the counting method and still can't succeed. So I tried to hold him up in a sitting position. He was very angry with me, because when I pass him his plastic bag, he smacked it down angrily. Then I don't want to bother him. After that when we are walking back to the classroom, he suddenly turned around and pushed me away. I have no control over the children! I definitely only can be an assistant teacher.

Actually when Chen lao shi was waking up, this special needs child was very good. He went to help Chen lao shi to place the mattress at one side. When I was there to help, he helped to wake those children up. Although he is a special needs child, he is very smart and he is a very good boy. He know what can he do and what he can't do. During tea break time, when his partner is sitting on only 2 legs chair, he went to pull his chair down. When his partner lie on the table, he went to pull him up too! Such a good boy, the class most obedient child.

That's all for today, hope tomorrow will be a better day! God bless!:)

Alive!

Sermon title: Alive!

Main verse: Ezekiel 37:1-14

Preacher: Rev. Melvyn Mak

God is always performing miracles in my life.

~How can we overcome hopelessness in our lives?

1) Review and Repent

Whatever hopelessness in our life, God can solve it.

*verse 1-3

The people of God examine their lives.

3 reasons why your life is lifeless:

a]Dry bones

b]Lost hope

c]Cut off

*verse 11

"The glory of God is man fully alive." ~Saint Irenaeus

When there is no faith in the future, there is no work in the present.

2) Reconcile and Reconnect

*verse 7-8

Ephesians 4:16

3) Revive and Refire

*verse 9-10

Receive the Holy Spirit with a child-like attitude.

Be filled with the Holy Spirit and prophesy.

Proverbs 18:21

Mark 11:23

Graduation & Concert day

Toh Jing

Christopher

Xuan Hui

Javier

Joel

Yu Peng

Joseph

Gwenda and Joshua

Darren

Shawn

Zitane

Clement

Dion

Adam

Hougang TOUCH child care graduation and concert day was a successful one. It was a very tiring day, I don't even have time to go toilet and drink water. But overall it was a very good experience. The K2's performance was so great that the parents kept applauding. I felt so happy to see them performing so well and don't know why I got this feeling of wanting to cry. The children are very happy and one thing which is very typical, when they saw their parents, they kept shouting, "Mummy! Mummy! (or) Daddy! Daddy!" HAHA! One child cried because he can't follow his mummy. Children equals to cute! No matter how naughty they are, they are still very adorable.

There is this girl who goes by the name of Xuan Hui, she seems to don't like me. This few days she kept giving me a face and somehow scold me. She looks pissed off when she talked to me. I don't know what did I do to let her act in that way towards me. Hmm, I'm a bit disappointed and I don't know what to do. My only reaction was to stay away from her. But I forgave her as she is so young and I still love her! HEHE~

I have a complain which I think I need to tell God. God please help me to be more forgiving to the volunteers, as they have the heart to even come and help us. Just now when I need to go on to the stage to place the props, I was really rushing like mad and I was nervous. While I was spreading out the props, Ms Low came and said, "Prepare the mat first. Where is my boys, I told them to prepare already." When I heard that, I was kind of (erm) sad or angry? It's because I need to prepare 3 big props and nobody was there to help me. And the guys were all playing with their phone down at the side! If I don't know there is people who is going to help me, I think I will be okay. Ok end of complain.

There is this Ms Jamie who came to help out and I don't know why people kept mistaken that I'm her. I think it's because we are both at the same height and also have long hair. HAHA!

I think I have nothing to say anymore. Thank God for today!:)

Running a fever!

Yesterday have a high fever of 38.2 degree celsius and I even vomited!:( I was not feeling very well yesterday during work but I didn't have a fever. I wanted to come to work today badly so I try my best to make me sweat and get well. I was really desperate to go help out. But how silly I am to work even when I was not fully recover, now I'm still feeling a bit of weirdness in my body. God please heal me completely! Thank You God!

Yesterday the K2s visit Monfort Junior school and on the way back to the centre, it started to rain, so Ms Low called Mrs Lim to bring umbrella. The children was so cute that they started to cry out to God by saying, "Jesus please stop the rain!". They are so cute and I don't know how to describe that. After a few minutes, the rain stopped!! Hallelujah! God answered the children's prayer because they are so child-like, indeed they are. When I saw that I was touched by it and felt that I should be more like them.

Anyway a lot of things happened again and I was really exhausted because they don't really listen to me. They are only scared when the teachers use loud voices to scold them. Lord please give me the strength to do your work! Thanks!

Got to go and rest and prepare for tomorrow heavy day. Ciaos!:)

Wow!

God is helping me to be able to manage the children. The children is quite obedient towards as in the children will listen to me. When I was with the K1 class, the children was snatching the crayons and accidentally tore the newspaper, I said, "You see!" then all of them was quiet for a moment. Before that they were so noisy and don't want to listen to me, indeed God is with me.

During lunch time, there was this volunteer who came out of no where to help out. I think she is helping out to give out papayas. Then when the children came to the table and just put down their cups, I told them to asked her nicely and they do it. Caleb is the funniest one because he put his cup with his back facing that volunteer. He look shy and maybe don't know how to ask because he don't know who is she. HAHA! So cute!

There is too many cute and funny incident that I would want to share with everybody but there is too many and some only said out with words is better. I thought I was not going to blog but when I start typing, I can't stop! HAHA!

After their nap time, I went to help out in the N class. When I was assigned to help out in looking after the children to finish their work, the teacher praised them in doing so fast. She said usually she asked them to hurry up but they are so slow, but today they did so fast. I felt a bit happy because I have been in a good use. HAHA!

Can't wait for tomorrow to happen! May the love of God be with everybody. Ciaos!:)

Too lazy/tired

I'm starting to become lazy to blog. Well I still have fun with the children. Lots of things happened. I think I will just store it in my brain. Guess I won't be blogging for the next few days till I think I want to update. Don't even feel like using the laptop. How come I've become like this? Hmm..guess it's the work and plus these few days are even busier due to the graduation on this sat. I need to stay strong to help them out. God bless those who are reading my blog. Ciaos!:)

Thanks to God's grace

I stayed with the T class the whole day today. I thought I will be with the K2 class because Miss Clarinda is not here. At first I don't really like to stay at T class but who knows, they are very cute and they like me a lot. I'm very tired today due to the tons of work I did today, so I'm going to post a short post. I still need to improve in bathing the children, I'm too slow.

Today I was really exhausted in doing the work, I really just felt like giving up. But I have been through so many things and God has helped me a lot. I shouldn't just give up because I felt tired. That's too horrible! There is this girl who kept asking me to sit properly and don't squat down. HAHA! She is so cute! When I'm with this class, I felt like I'm also a child playing with them. Being like them make me feel good. HAHA!

When I was very tired I kept crying out to Jesus. Today I depended on the Lord many of the time and He bless me abundantly. I really can felt it! He brought a teacher to come and thank me for all the hard work I have done. What she said bring my mood up and I was somehow happy about it. It keeps me going when actually I'm needed. I know it's from God and I want to thank God so much!

I can felt that the T class likes me a lot. There is too many incident to type it out here. I will just say one that is quite obvious. When they are at the music room waiting for their parents to come and pick them up, I sat with them. And this little boy whom I forgot his name came to sat with me and touched me(somehow admiring me?). Then Joseph from the K2 class saw me and suddenly ran towards me, hugged me and sat on me, nearly crushing me to the ground. I was struggling to get him off me because my back hurts a lot. That boy who sat next to me saw the incident and he saw my face. He helped me to push Joseph down, which is wrong because he is not supposed to push him down. Then Joseph is not happy so he beat his head. Thank God it was not a hard force. I caressed the boy's head and tell him it's OK.

I guessed when you are the only teacher there who don't scold them, that's how the will react and the worst thing is that they will bully you! Even if they are only three years old, they can ignore you when you tell them not to do this not to do that.

Ok a short post indeed! HAHA! Thank God for today!:)

Rejoice in the Lord always!

Message title: Rejoice in the Lord always!

Main verse: Philippians 4:4

Preacher: Rev. Yong Tai Tong

1 Thessalonians 5:16 & 18

Philippians 3:1

-Things that will rob us off our joy:

1)Circumstances

2)Conflicts

3)Cares and Worries

-Three principles that helped Paul rejoice in the Lord always:

1) Focus on Jesus

Rejoice in the Lord always

Philippians 4:5 "The Lord is near."

Near: -as an ever present help in times of trouble

-coming back soon, to remove sadness and wipe away our tears.

Philippians 3:12 & 14

2)Focus on Others

A self-centered person will never be happy.

Philippians 1:3-4

" 1:7-8

" 1:21-25

" 2:1-8

3)Fix Your worries

Be a "Barnabas" friend

Barnabas means Son of Encouragement (Acts 4:36). Barnabas convinced the apostles not to be afraid of Saul (Paul) after God changed him on the road to Damascus. And Barnabas was the one the apostles sent to Antioch to encourage the new believers there to remain true to the Lord (Acts 11:23). You can be a Barnabas to your friends, encouraging them to be strong in their faith no matter what they are going through.

(Friendship by Paige Jeary)

Spiritually/mentally tired

Yesterday didn't get to update my blog because I reached home at around 2330. I was too tired to even switch on my lappy. Usually I can even switch on the laptop at 0000. Yesterday at the centre I was mentally or maybe can say spiritually tired. I think I have not being serving with God's grace so that's why I'm so worn out. But I remembered to ask God for His help so it was still an enjoyable day.

I attend to the K2 class again and I it was like God answering my 'haven't-pray-prayer'! Because that day I just said I miss the K2s then yesterday I was there with them the whole day! Thank God for being so gracious.

That boy, Shawn, who always want me to pat him asked me a question, "Yesterday who did you pat?"
I answered, "I was patting Toh Jing and Joel(His classmates)."
He replied, "I saw you patting some K1s then I asked you to come, you said wait(showing me my action at the same time, which was very cute)."
I apologised, "Oh serious? I think I forget, so sorry about it. Next week I will come and pat you first OK?"

HAHA! He is so cute! The cuteness in him makes me love him so much. He also told me that Joshua and Gwenda is married. After that Yu Peng told me that Gwenda is Joshua's girlfriend! HAHA! They are so adorable, they even know this kind of thing. When he told me that time we were walking to the music room. Then Yu Peng go and grabbed Gwenda's hand then Joshua grab it back. I don't know what they are trying to do but surprisingly Gwenda grabbed Joshua's hand! The whole situation is so funny. Picture memory is better and it always make me smile at them.

During nap time I nearly want to faint, because the children has been bullying me for the whole day. I was smiling just for the sake of smiling and I was so fueled up that I nearly shouted at the children. I don't like that because I felt that I can't control my mood. But in the end everything was fine because I cried out to God. I really thank God that He has brought in that situation into my life to train me.

I was suddenly called to stay for another hour to help the T class because the lack of helpers. Miss Winnie said they will pay me for that extra hour. I was quite shy to accept that payment because I don't mind helping out for another hour. At first I was a bit reluctant because it was so last minute. I don't like last minute decision plus yesterday I was spiritually tired. But if I change to a different mindset, I can treat it as a way of using my time to serve God more.

In the evening, I went for cell at the same time to refresh my soul with God. It was wonderful:)

They actually like me a lot!

Today I helped every class except for the K2s. I missed them and they missed me too! HAHA! When I walked pass the K2 boys, I asked them, "Wah! Birthday party just end?" Then that boy who said I was very pretty last friday shouted, "Miss Tan!" He was very happy to see me. HAHA! Then during their nap time when I patting one of the K2 boy to sleep, we have a short conversation:

He said, "Miss Tan, why you didn't come to our class anymore?"
I replied, "Because Miss Clarinda is back."
He asked, "Huh~ But I want you to come, if Miss Clarinda didn't come will you come to our class?"
I answered, "Haha! I don't know."
His last word was, "Huh~"

They are so cute! HAHA! I wished I could go back to that class too but I can't choose. I hoped that the supervisor will asked me where do I want to go to next week, and I will say K2. HAHA! I think I have also created a 'bond' with them. Whenever I see them I sure have things to talk to them and I like to talk to them. They will always crowd around me asking me how to read this word and that word.

When I was with the nursery class, I was somehow bored and it's my first day with the nursery children. Then when I looked over to the T class, this boy is looking at me, then he look very cute and I smiled to him. But he didn't give me any reaction but just stared at me. HAHA! Then the teacher of that class spotted me smilling to him said something about him which I forgot then I just smile. At the same time, the boy beside the teacher, who is also her child, was signalling me to go over. These children are so adorable! HAHA!

Then when I have to go home, I need to pass by the T class, they saw me going home and they said goodbye to me. I thought they were going to ignore me! Children are really a gift from God.

Not feeling well

Today the children went for their rehearsal at TC. I helped the K1s today. There is this child called Caleb who kept saying, "Miss Tan, I like you. I want to sit with you." So cute! HAHA! He is the one who said I will stay with them. Anyway then during nap time I slept with him. At that point of time I didn't know he was sick. Then later during afternoon tea break, the chinese teachers told me that he was sick and just came back to school. He was crying so badly and wants his mummy. So I tried to comfort him and he hugged me back. So I stayed there with him. I'm not sure whether did he pass the virus to me, I just get sick when I was about to go home. I felt nausea and whole body was weak. I felt like crying because I felt like I can't control my body. God please help me.

Thank God for this day

Nearly late for work again. Today I'm scheduled for 0745 but reached at 0740. Tomorrow have to reach at 0700. Supposedly to reach at 0715 but I want to be there early. I love this job and I want to serve the Lord wholeheartedly. I don't mind coming in early and going out late. HEHE~ I can have my breakfast there if I need to reach at 0745. That's good then means I don't have to wake up so early to have my breakfast.

Today the children are behaving very badly. They are not listening and paying attention to the teachers. Two groups of children, one boy group and one girl group, are not happy with each other. Two of the boys said they don't want to be friend with this boy and that boy cried. So poor thing. Then three of this girls said they don't want to be friend with this other girl. I don't know why are they behaving like this. Lord please bring love to them, let them love one another.

They are still so adorable and always make me laugh. The N class children remember me already, they came and call me and smile to me. So cute!! If not they will just stare at me and think who am I. HAHA! Today I found out that there is no holiday for the children at all, except september there will be a staff retreat. So cool! I really love this job a lot and I thank God that He has given me this open door and let me experience such a joy in working for Him.

I'm not going to post about what happened at the childcare for today because I just argued with Huan. I have no mood and I'm disappointed at her behaviour and attitude. I will scold her until she wake up! Want people to understand you, first understand others. Don't kept blaming others for what happened to you. You have the right to let yourself be happy and sad. So why don't let yourself be happy? Think! O Lord, please please open her heart to You and let her want to be close to You, Lord! Thank You!!:)

Although today might be a bit moody plus some weird things that happened, I still want to thank God for today.