Bored & sick of it

Taffy is so cute even in her slp :D

Woke up @ abt 11.30pm..

experience headache..

think is bcos slp too long..

den used lappy use until v. bored..

do quiet time den go take a nap..

woke up @ 6pm..

saw Huan using my lappy..

jux now quarrel with Pei..

really can't take her attitude..

haix..

dunno what is she thinking abt..

I noe some part I'm wrong..

but she did more wrong than mi..

anyway if telling her off has no use I'm not gonna bother abt her anymore..

since she said those hurting words..

think today is e 1st time I quarrel with her w/o losing my temper..

if not I think e whole hse gone berserk..

I noe teenagers @ sec 3 period cfm will b rebellious..

so give her time to think abt it..

1.11PM

Today Pam & I wore e same colour combination for e top .. bottom & shoes..

it's so coincidence..

actually wanna take photo but 4got..

nvm next time cfm still have chance..

hahax..

these few days kept seeing 1.11pm..

does that mean anything..??

what does it mean then..??

hope it's not a bad sign..

ohhx my goodness..

when did I bcm so superstitious..??

if it's from God then it's ok..

I mean e sign thingy..

XP

these few days quite moody too..

I smt dun like this kind of attitude of mine..

& I dun feel gd having it..

it always make mi feel hurt..

Listless

Today was quite a long day with bags that kill & my back hurts so much..

but I'm somehow used to it..XP

mummy will scold mi if she noes that..

anyway I felt so listless now..

I felt that I have no goals & purpose in my life..

dunno whether izzit a sin to think of meeting God soon..

hmm..

malay lesson starts next mon..

dun think I will have e mood to study if Ms Aishah is teaching us..

I really hope that O level result will b release this dec..

so I won't have to wait until next yr in case I really feel like quitting sch..

e things we r studying is v. interesting..

but I dun think nursing is my future..

but still I have to follow God's instruction if He really want mi to stay in nursing..

shall wait for God's ans..

Weak & High

What did I eat that make my stomach so pain..??
luckily it started to pain after I have reached home..
den I have diarrhea..
non-stop pain..!!
can't really stand it..
e pain is excruciating until I feel like gg to e hospital to seek treatment..
but den I rest for a while it was quite gd..
revise a bit den fall asleep..
hahax..
woke up & here I am updating blog..
today in sch quite fun..
actually I make myself feel fun..
hahax..
I think Pam .. Heidi & I r too high today but we like left out Adeline..
she like quite bored today huh..
in e end asked her she said she didn't slp well only..
hmm..mayb bahx..

[Still having a v. bad headache]

Saw Xin Yi

Today I was quite not myself..

a bit not myself..

suddenly so high today..

mayb it's bcos I have finally finished my eng exam with satisfaction..

anyway my malay lesson will b held starting from next week onwards..

it's like adding on to all my stress..

I wonder how all my senior can cope..

& today I saw XIN YI..!!

yes XIN YI..

I saw her boarding e same bus as mi but I avoided her..

y mux I avoid her..??

she is e one who wanna avoid us one..

I mux b too scared to face her..

some more she might pretend she doesn't noe mi if I call her..

it's quite a sad thing..

jux straight after O level she didn't contact with anyone..

even her 2 v. best fren..

Nurul & mi..

jux bcos of that matter she doesn't wanna talk to mi..

pls it's my freedom to do what I want ok..??

nvm it's e past..

let bygones b bygones..

anyway I have so many great frens around mi..

losing a fren who doesn't care much abt MY HAPPINESS is not a prob to mi..

[Still having a v. bad headache..]

O' level Eng exam

My henna tattoo

Today didn't went to sch but instead I went for my eng exam..

e whole day I couldn't feel e stress of having an exam..

dunno izzit bcos I alr have e result so I dun really care or what..

e 1st paper was a bit stressful bcos I 4got what is e format & I wrote wrongly..

so I think my letter writing will not score well..

but I have confident in my compo..

hahax..

den paper 2 was quite easy..

I think it's bcos dey talked abt psychology & bio stuff which I'm interested in..

so I believe God will help mi & I will score well..

yeahx..!!

ok these few days I'm damn busy..

dere is no rest for mi at all..

ever since my attachment I couldn't get a time for mi to really slack..

& now I can feel e headache which I had alr experienced it last yr..

it is a v. bad headache..

sometimes e pain can suddenly come out & stay at one side of my brain..

may e Lord bless mi abundantly..!!

Can God Depend On You?

Sermon title: Can God Depend On You?
Preacher: Ps. Dishan Wickramaratne (Sri Lankan)
Main verse: 1 Samuel 16:7

John 1:40-42
" 6:5-9
" 12:20-22

Good sign

This is e pic which we took when we rushed to amk hub to have our 1 hr break..

hahax..

bcos we r sick of sch's food..

only 6 mths & we alr felt like this..

can't imagine how r we gonna survive in this sch..

hahax..

This is only e 1st week of sch & I can feel e stress..
it's e right amt of stress & I like it..
bcos I feel e needs to study as much as possible..
to unds all those "chim chim" words..
today alr borrowed 3 thick books..!!
it's so heavy that I have a bad backache now..
but it's somehow worth it..
those books I borrowed r so impt for mi as a nurse..
I gain a lot of knowledge by reading it..
it's quite scary as dere is so many kinds of illness .. sickness .. diseases .. & so on and so forth..
den I will start to b conscious abt things that will affect mi..
but I'm still learning..
so dere is lots of things for mi to process..
I hope God will help mi so that I won't get stress up..

Bella slap Paul

~So cool..!!~

Damn Funny babies

Need sth fresh

I'm damn bored today..!!

slept @ 4am plus den woke up @ 8am plus..

luckily today only 2 hrs of sch so not that tired..

after sch went for lunch with Heidi, Val & Adeline..

den went back home..

that's what I do today..

so simple & BORED..!!

I wanna have sth fresh..

what can satisfy my needs..??

hahax my needs worx not my want..

Recovering From A Fall

Topic: Recoving from a fall
Bible passage: 1 Chronicles 21-22:1
Preacher: Rev Melvyn Mak

How can we recover from a fall or failure?
1)Flee from the Hold of Satan - God hates the Sin of Pride
Numbers 1:1-2
" 26:2
2 Chronicles 2:17
Proverbs 6:16-19
" 8:13
" 16:18
James 4:6
1 Corinthians 10:13
2 Samuel 24:1 ~ 1 Chronicles 21:1
~Pride open the door for the Satan to attack us.
~The sin of pride has grave consequences.

2)Fall into the Hands of God - God hears the Poor In Spirit.
*verse 13, 15-17
James 2:13
Habakkuk 3:2

William Barclay

"It is the power of that love and not the constraint of the law, that will keep us right, for love is always more powerful than law."

~William Barclay~

Feeling cute [hahax]

Jack Jack..!!

hahax..

anyway today went to meet Hunny at PS to acc her buy some facial stuff..

den met Precious at bugis to buy some clothes..

dey suddenly said wanna go dye hair..

den we bought e Liese & off to Precious' hse..

e product was quite effective..

thought it won't come out e colour we want..

have fun having our DIY session with each other..

spent quite a time dere & Precious was late for her class at her church..

sry Precious for taking up ur time..

so today I bought 2 tops & 1 dress..!!

$8 per piece..!!

so shiok..

hahax..

enjoyed my day..

Joyful

I've checked my timetable for 1.2..

& I'm quite happy wif it bcos I dun have any 8am classes in e whole wk..!!

hahax..

though I'm still considering whether to quit or not to..

but I like what we r gonna learn..

e modules r so interesting..

dere is one abt childbearing one..

still got communication & customer service..!!

that lecturer still said how to teach us communication..

humph..!!

den y still got this module..??

ok anyway I'm preparing for my eng o..

which is coming soon..!!

shall go..

more updates so stay tune..!!

hahax.. XD

Cute Taffy

Taffy is emo-ing..

hahax..

dog also will emo derx..

:P

Money money money

I've so many things to buy yet I have no money..

hahax..

have to wait for my pay..

hope dey won't drag until v. long..

Money & LONDON!!

I finally can go to LONDON..!!
& I'm trying v. hard to save enough $$$..
yeahx I'm gonna do it..!!
anyway I'm quite happy today..
btw Xin Ru told mi that she wanna bcm a christian..!!
I'm happy for her..
yeahx..!!
can't wait to go to LONDON..!!

Happy day!!

Today my parents are v. supportive..

dey allowed mi to go to LONDON..!!

yippee..!!

hahax..

I've alr started & today I brought food to sch..

today onwards I will cont. like this..

for e sake of saving money for LONDON..!!

I think it's quite fun & it's healthier..!!

hahax..

btw today Xin Ru told mi that she wanna bcm a christian..!!

I'm so happy for her..

yeahx..!!

-[end]-

Standing Tall in turbulent times - Confident in times of Uncertainty

Sermon title: Standing Tall in Turbulent times - Confident in Times of Uncertainty

Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong

Main verse: Daniel 7

Pastor Nina's preaching:

THEME of staff advance:

~1 Peter 2:9

A royal priesthood:

~Exodus 19:6

~Revelation 1:6

~Romans 12:1

A holy nation:

~1 Peter 1:6

~Exodus 19:6

We are SPECIAL - we have access to God

We Love our neighbour as ourselves:

~Galatians 5:14

There r e unknown unknowns in our life.

Daniel saw God in 2 ways:

1)Ancient Days: God of Eternity gives us a sense of Destiny.

~We have Security - there is no fear.~

*verse 9-10, 21-22

~Revelation 5:8

Our LIFE is just a preparation for eternity.

In happy moment, praise God. In difficult moment, trust God. In painful moment, seek God. In every moment, thank God.

2)Son of Man: God of Excellence gives us a sense of Dignity.

~We have significance - we are no failure~

*verse 13-14

~Psalm 8:3-5

~Luke 19:10

~ " 24:7

*verse 21-22, 26-27

~Matthew 19:28

God is more concern of who we r not what we r.

You r not a trash, you r His treasure!

No one can rob away your dignity & significance, it can only be surrender by u, so do not surrender it.

No Choice, Fake Smile

*Edited*

Last day of attachment

Finally 3 weeks have passed..

I'm still considering whether to quit nursing or not..

but e chance of not quitting is too low(10%)..

so it all have to depends on what God wants mi to do..

today I was quite moody..

not in e mood to joke or take jokes..

finally I can slp till v. late..

no more waking up in e morning at 4 plus..

hahax..

talking abt slp-ing I feel like slp-ing now..

Busy

I prayed for more things to do & God answered my prayer..!!
today I was like a busy lady..
I'm doing things all e time..
w/o stopping at all..
except when e lecturer came & asked mi to "tell story" to him from e case notes..
I like today man although e female lecturer is so weird..
I went somewhere else & she can't find mi..
den when I went back she will ask mi where did u go..
of cos go take things lahx..
dun tell mi she suspect I go slack lohx..
den ltr I took some things..
she asked mi, "what r u doing..??which bed r u bringing these things to..??"
she kept asking this kind of weird qns..
I can't be possibly report everything to her right..??
I'm alr rushing to do things & yet she is asking mi weird qns..
spoiled my mood..
hope tml will end with a happy mood..
today talked to a few female pt..
female pt is easier to talk to except for 1 male pt(discharged alr)..
those I talked to r grannies..
dey r so damn cute..
dey made my day..
hahax..

DEMORALISED!!

ytd we was told to do an evaluation form which is some kind of feedbacks for e staff working dere..
den in e comments part I wrote down I was lost & confused e 1st wk..
& I hope that dey will have some kind of introduction to tell us what will happened after report taking..
so e students can unds what dey can do & mayb start their work wif e SN & EN..
after a few hrs ltr..
one of e lecturer came & talked to mi..
she said she wanna put mi in e morning shift..
bcos she wants e CI & another lecturer to observe mi..
I was like ???..
y suddenly like this..??
y mi & not e others..??
but of cos I didn't said that to her..
den she pull to a room & started to give mi a lecture..!!
which is scolding plus demoralising mi..!!
this is a summary of what she said to mi:
"everytime u mux find sth to do..
nth to do also mux find sth..
sure will have sth to do..
if not go c whether ur frens need help or not..
i dun wanna c u doing nth..
if u still cont. to have this kind of behaviour I will fail u..
if i fail u for ur first posting means u're not ready .. not suitable or not capable..
& if e next posting which is e medical posting u still behave like this dey will sure gonna fail u..
so u better dun have this kind of behaviour anymore.."
mayb for e find sth to do part I really mux go ask e SN for sth to do..
but I when I'm doing sth she is not dere..
when I'm not doing sth she is dere..
it's not like I'm slacking or what..
I really have find sth to do alr..
dey dun even noe how glad I am when I have things to do..
even my frens r resting I dun even dare to follow dem to rest..
den after scolding everybody noes that I went back crying except for e staff..
I cried twice man..
den I went to find sth to do which I find it diff bcos it's e afternoon shift..
so I went to read e case notes which e other lecturer said he want mi to tell him one "story" after reading e case notes..
den so heng e lecturer who scolded mi came back..
she asked mi, "what r u doing here..??ur senior is doing sth..y r u still here..??"
ok this one nvm..
I went to find my senior c whether she needs any help or not..
but when I found her she was partnering wif another senior..
so what she want mi to do..??
loiter around..??
I'm really confused by what she wants mi to do lohx..
den got one thing I also v. unhappy abt it..
e CI said if I'm in team 1 I better stick wif those 2 cubicles of team 1..
try not to wander around other team's cubicles..
let e team members who r in charge of it do..
but e lecturer who scolded mi said I should go help my frens when I have nth to do..
is like..what u'll actually want mi to do..??
pls lohx..
say I should communicate more wif everybody..
I think dey r e ones who should really communicate wif each other..
is like dere is some communication break down btw e lecturers & e CI..
some more e lecturer still said, "I can't b possibly teaching u how to communicate.."
what rubbish is that..??
even e engineering students have comm. skills module..!!
y can't nurses have it to..??
I think e nurses need it more..!!
some more I'm more to e shy type..
(ppl who noes mi dun give comment ahrx..hahax..)
dey mux give mi time to warm up..
everything needs to warm up..
excercises..food that is cold..strangers in fact..!!
I'm ok if I really did wrong & dey comment abt it..
but e way e lecturer talked to mi is alr demoralising mi..!!
suicide even came to my mind..
but I will nv eva do that..
it is a greatly sin..
even thinking abt it is a sin..
dey make mi cry so much..
today i really cnt take it anymore I consult my mother..
I cried from 1 full box until e box is almost empty & I still feel like crying..
dey make mi feel so useless..
I'm so disappointed & e respect I have given dem is not worthy for mi to give anymore..
y can e authority always "talk" to us & didn't ask us what our probs really r..??
I thgt e lecturers r dere to help us & not to demoralise us..??
even my frens felt so unfair..
if I can quit sch now b4 2nd sem start I will quit it straight away..
even though I love my classmates so much & I will surely miss dem loads..!!
i really wanna stay in this sch wif my frens for 3 yrs..
but I dun think I really can endure anymore..
after I quit I have plans..
if I cnt quit sch now den I will finish my whole yr w/o e EOY attachment..
but I noe no matter what I'm gg through now dere is a purpose for..
God surely will have a purpose for mi..
I'm quite glad that I've gone through this stage at this point of time..
so I can noe what e outside world is abt..
during this attachment I really learn a lot..
dere is too many characters in this world..
thx to Heidi who have console mi when i really need to say out..
I feel like consulting a counsellor soon..
I doesn't wanna go into a depression mode..

Stay firm

Have to stay firm no matter what..!!
have to endure for 4 more days..!!
today is not my happy day but I still have to serve e Lord..
bcos He has put me in this course & I believe He has great plan for me..
I think that malay language is a prob to me..
should have ask my mother to teach me some malay words b4 I go for my attachment..
I really doesn't like to go back to work tml but I have to pray pray & pray den trust trust & trust..
Jia you Jia you Jia you..!!

A Place to be

Topic: A Place to be
Main verse: Acts 17:24-28; Galatians 5:14
Preacher: Rev. Eugene Seow

-Is this the place to be?
-The Greatest commandment: Matthew 22:37-40
-Love God = Love your neighbour (Galatians 5:14)
"To love your neighbour is the place to be."
-How can I be a good neighbour?
1)Accept your place in God's plan.
*verse 26
Genesis 1:28
" 12:1-2
" 35:11-12
1 Chronicles 4:10
Jeremiah 29:4-7
-Don't regret in the place God has given you. (My course)

2)Align God's plan in your place.
*verse 27
-Find the purpose of your place. (nursing course)!
Matthew 5:13
Psalm 16:5-6
-When we live in God's plan, people among us will want to seek Him, reach out to Him and find Him.

3)Act in Faith and believe God for transformation.
*verse 28
-W/o Faith, it is impossible to please God.
Luke 5:17-26
-"Jesus does not respond to needs, He responds to Faith!"
It is because He know what we want, He just want us to move with Faith.
--God wants to move us from salt to light.
Matthew 5:14-15
-Let your LIGHT shine!

Allergic to coffee?

Think I'm allergic to coffee..
last time I won't b like this..
but recently when I drank coffee I will feel v. weak .. hands shivering .. nausea .. heart beat abnormal .. & for no reason I have rashes..
hmm..think it's possible that I can't drink..??
but last time I drank coffee dere is nth wrong with me..
anyway this week's work was quite enjoyable..
I love this team..
I hope next week I can still stay in this team..
but next week I'm back to team 1..
sob sob..
e SN & EN in this team r quite scary..
especially e malays..
dey r e ones who made me dun feel like continuing my course..
how I hope that next week will end quickly..