I miss my K2 children!:(

Finally my K2 officially graduate from TOUCH childcare. I miss them so much. But it's somehow a relief too. Looking after one or two of them is fine, but when it comes to the whole bunch of them, I cannot take it. It's a tough year but I made it! Next year will be a whole new year with the same working partners and coping with my studies. I have so much to thank the Lord with. He brought 3 people to bless me abundantly and also show me His grace and mercy. There is no words to describe how marvelous He is. I'm got to work extra hard for next year.

Still staying in K2

I will continue to stay in K2!! In fact, every teacher will be staying at the same class. Well I'm somehow disappointed, happy & stress about next yr when I know I will b in k2. Disappointed because I thought I could be in T class(where all the cute children are). Stress because I will still be working closely with the manager. Happy because next yr k1 will be much easily to handle & many other reasons. But I'm also not happy to be working with the same person.

Even though the manager said that I did a great job and she wants me to continue to help her. I'm very happy to hear that but after all, even if the class is easy to handle, there are so many things to do. Spelling, numerous outing, preparation of art is another thing, GRADUATION!! Next year graduation will be at TC which is the grand one. How am I going to handle without You, Lord?!

3 dreams same guy

I had 3 dreams. In this 3 dreams, there is this guy who kept appearing on my dream. I don't know why was he there. There isn't anything in specific. I don't know what God is trying to tell me. I don't meet any particular guy after the dream. God didn't tell me to reach out to who or telling me that he is my perfect half. The dream just came and go like that. But isn't it mysterious that in 3 dreams, all of them consists of that same guy? Other part of me is trying to tell me negative things about it but I choose to not believe. Because every time before I sleep, I will pray to God to ask Him to give me dreams that only He want to show me and to take away all other negative dreams. So well. I just have to wait for God's answer after praying.

Busy bee

It's been so long since I last update my post. These 2 weeks was a very very busy week. Everyday was like running out of time. Even have to bring books back to mark! Can you imagine what it would be if you really are a Teacher? I don't know how am I going to cope when I'm going to study and work at the same time. God bless me! HAHA! Actually I have lots of things to say but I am not in the mood of typing all out. Really lots of things. Well, talk to the Holy Spirit and let it be a part of my memory. Got to retire to bed.


Going to find one day and have a good update of my recent stuff. Graduation is done and PTC will be over after tomorrow. Now what we do is outing and outing. Waiting for my k2 camp with my children. Hope it will be a wonderful event. Now left with 26 days with my k2 children. Have both feelings of relief and sad. Going to miss them after they go to primary school.

Learning to submit everything to God.

Lost of money is a material thing. But it's disappointing when you know that you didn't lost it. This week, the class teacher came and told me that one of the child's money was being given to me from the parent. The money was for the Vitagen. I remembered the father passed it to me. I put it in my pocket and later on passed it to the teacher. But she said she don't remember that I gave it to her. The money was with the form in a zip-lock bag! How can the form is there and the money is no where in sight?! I searched high and low, but still can't locate the money. I didn't put it in the cupboard or in the drawer anymore. Ever since they told me not to do so. What more I didn't touch any of the Vitagen's money. I only touched the field trips money as I need to handle it before the class teacher comes back from her holiday. I guessed that she wants to order for her daughter but forgot to put in money and thought that she put it in already. But I don't dare to say, she would have said no and what evidence do I have to say that? The more I think and said about it, the more I believe that I have already passed it to her. But the money is no where to be found!! Jesus, helped me to be free from this burden.


I don't know whether can I trust this person or not because there was one time when I put one of the child's money in the cupboard and she took it away without telling me until I asked of it. Could she be doing it to scare me? I have too many doubts about this teacher but I have no evidence and I can't just say that when I have some problem with her in trusting her. She is a person who always like to say about others in front of the supervisor and the manager. I don't like her but I have to love her as what God said, love your enemies as yourself.


Well, like what Pastor Pui Leng said, I have to submit to God and let Him be my avenger for the misunderstanding and everything. I felt cheated and wronged but I believe God is always there for me. Thank God it's only $13 and not the school fees! If not half of my 1 month salary will be gone just like that. Everything happens because God let it happened. He want me to learn something from it and be strong. Anyway it's over, I have paid the price and learnt a lesson from it. I need to think of something to be careful with money from the children. The parents might not be able to trust me even though they still look at me with a cheerful smile. BUT I will not let it knock me down. I will run the race till I see You face, Jesus! I will do whatever You want me to do on earth as an extreme disciple before I go back home.


There is a verse from Pastor Pui Leng, "Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death." (2 Corinthians 7:10)


"Let the past be your teacher." ~ Pastor Brad

Feel like going to the beach now.

It's been a while since I last updated. There has been so many things that are happening and had happened. I didn't post because I don't want to use the laptop for too long, so skip blogging. Anyway I went to Muar and decided we as a cell should go as an annual thing. It was good to be in the presence of the Lord not thinking of work.


Now I'm attending SOL 1-foundation, today's lesson talked about repentance and faith. Sin to God is like when you drop your toothbrush in the toilet and it touches a bit of shit, you won't go and take it to wash and sanitize it, but you will throw it away. If you don't have faith, it is sin! We are asked to repent to God about our sins that we doesn't want to let go. That we always give excuses about. I repented of my short-temper and anger. And today, my sister hit me 3 times but I still hold on and calmed myself down without returning the blows. Even though I was hurt and disappointed, I was really thankful of God that I didn't hit back which I usually will do. It's a good thing that I know God.


Whenever I'm feeling down, stress, hurt, disappointed or sad, I have a sudden feeling of wanting to go to the beach. I like it there. If I can't go, I will visualize I'm there at a specific place. I just like to look at the sky and relax myself. Well, I'm actually having a fever and I'm not feeling good. My mum is on her way to the hospital to see the doctor. Hope that everything will be fine with God's grace. I pray that my mum will not stay in the hospital which she thinks she will. I reject that in the name of Jesus!

Without God I can't survive

Last Friday went to Muar and it was fantastic. I had a great experience and I felt closer to God. I hope that our cell group will have it as a annual thing. That will be great. After a closer walk with God, I am not that fearful of the worldly stuff. Hallelujah!:)


Today I have a heavy heart. Actually I think it's after I heard what the admin staff said. I asked her about my studies and she said they postponed it to next year April. I was a bit shocked and disappointed. They didn't tell me that they have decided for me. Although I said it doesn't matter when but I thought their final plan was to enroll me in October? I thought I could finally settle down but I still have to wait till next year. Lord, is this Your plan? If it is, please show it to me clearly. I'm mentally tired working there. There is so much stress that sometimes I really felt like giving up. Lord, give me the strength to carry on. Help me to fulfill Your plan in this place. I love You, Jesus:)


I went to volunteer at HCA Hospice care for I think about 2 to 3 hours. Didn't really do anything. Just went to fetch those elderly. I don't know what to talk to them. If they are children, I will have be able to do something for them.

Extreme discipleship - A matter of life and death

Sermon title: Extreme discipleship - A matter of life and death

Key scripture: Philippians 1:21

Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong

Luke 9:23

Luke 14:33

"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." (Philippians 1:21)

John 12:24-25

Die to ourselves so that Christ can live in us.

3 important truth if you are a Christian:

1) You've already died

Galatians 5:24

Colossians 3:3

Romans 6:4

2) God calls us to die daily

Romans 6:11

Colossians 3:3 & 5

It doesn't matter who hurt you/who abandon you, die to it! Nail it to the cross!

If you don't die, you will die.

If you die, you will live.

3) You are to share in the suffering of Christ.

Philippians 1:29

Philippians 3:10-11

The best way to a wasteful life is to run away from Christ.

John 15:16 & 18-20

2 Corinthians 4:16-17

2 Corinthians 1:8-9

2 Timothy 3:12

2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Acts 4:29-31

Hebrews 11:32-40

Hebrews 12:1-4

Staff day!:)

Staff day was fun and interesting but was too tired. First we walked one big round from Kallang mrt station to kallang water sport centre. Second, we went dragon boating for I think about 2 hours! It was very very tiring! Third, went I was queuing up for changing up, the bus came when it was my turn! So I have no choice but to go and board the bus. Fourth, we have some activities at BB HQ. Which I'm not going to type out. My hands are too tired to continue. So ciaos!:)

Extreme discipleship

Sermon title: Extreme discipleship

Key Scripture: Luke 9:23-24

Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong

God is the God of the extreme.

When Christ die for us, that is extreme love.

God's demand for my life for discipleship is extreme.

To be an extreme disciple, is to have 100% commitment.

Luke 9:57-62

3 characteristics of an extreme disciple:

1) Denies himself - No earthly security

*verse 57-58

2 Corinthians 6:10

Luke 14:33

If we don't give up everything, we cannot be Jesus' disciple!

2) Takes up the cross daily - No earthly ties

Taking up the cross means death.

*Luke 9:59-60

Luke 14:25-27

God wants our extreme devotion that our love to our family is like hatred.

3) Follows Jesus - No earthly distractions

*verse 61-62

Follow Jesus and He will make you fisher of men.

Luke 14:28-30

Happy Teacher's Day!

Yesterday was my very first Teacher's day as a teacher. It was so fun playing with the children and also received tons of presents. It's so memorable. I love it so much and I can't believe I'm a teacher! At night went to celebrate with my colleague at the Italian restaurant in city square mall. They don't charge service charge and GST and the price is reasonable! The food is delicious too! I'm going back there with my family one day:)

Happy blessed Teacher's Day to all teachers out there!:)

Hallelujah!

Today woke up at 0755!! I was so late! I need to go off at 0810 that left me with only 15 mins to prepare. I quickly bathe and grabbed my Living Life devotion book along with me. I went off at about 0820. Thank God I was not late.

Thank God I was awoken by mummy's loud noise. I jumped up and saw that I was late. I wondered why I my alarm clock didn't wake me up. When I checked, my iPhone was off! I thought I charged it and it will on. Every time there is no problem till today. I try all sort of ways. I tried to hit it on the floor. I tried using daddy's charger to charge. Change to other socket still the same. In the end when I'm so desperate I cried out to God. Suddenly my phone lit up! Hallelujah! I was so grateful and I kept praising God for it. He is so wonderful! He is a God of miracles!:)

N.O.N.

Sermon title: N.O.N. (No Other Name)

Key scripture: Acts 3:1-10 & 16

Preacher: Rev. Eugene Seow

Hebrews 13:8

James 4:2

When you pray, something happen.

What can move the hands of God?

The answer is with faith in the name of Jesus.

~Two important key points:

1) A faith connections - Be concerned

*verse 4-5

Matthew 19:26

People don't care how much you know, until you know how much you care.

2) A faith confession - Be cool

*verse 6-8

Romans 10:9-11

How to pray for the sick?

a] Attitude of the minister

b] Be focused on Jesus Christ

We must be naturally supernatural and supernaturally natural.

No other name but Jesus:

*verse 16

Acts 4:7, 10 & 12

Eason is so sweet

Eason is one of my boys who is very active and couldn't sit still to listen during lesson time. Once when the chi teacher asked him to put his hands at the side in the pants, he fell asleep after a while when he couldn't move his hands. So funny!

He always comes to me and say "I love you, Miss Tan". He is really very sweet. I believe if he wants to give me the gift is also because purely regards me as his favourite teacher. Not that I'm boasting. I thought he will give it to Ms Low. It's very unexpected. It must be the love of God. Thank You Jesus!:)

Home visits

Finally finished another 3 home visits! Left with 11 more home visits. Hope to finish by end of next month. I don't want to drag until October when I start my classes and I still need to go for home visits. Got to endure for a few more nights. Every time home visit, end up very tired.

Xavier still got about 2 more weeks and he will stop school. It's difficult to find a time to take a photo with him when he go home at around 5pm. Unless I can grab him during lunch. I have to try maybe tomorrow or Friday the last day. Don't want to drag till next week. I might not have time to develop photo.

Chosen for fruitfulness

Sermon title: Chosen for fruitfulness

Key scripture: John 15:16

Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong

God has chosen me to bear fruits.

~3 ways to bear fruits:

1) You are to be fruitful

Galatians 5:22-23

John 15:11-12 (The joy of the LORD)

Romans 1:13

John 4:35-36

To be fruitful you have to reflect your life of God.

2) You are chosen!

God has chosen us because He want to take responsibility in us. He has ordained me to bear fruits.

Imagine God saying He didn't choose you but you chose Him. Wouldn't it be different?

3) It's your choice

We have to make this choice to be fruitful

Are we serious of being fruitful?

John 15:1-5

God the Father is our Gardener

We can win people to God when we are willing to let Him do anything to make us fruitful.

a] He purges-demolishes our sins

John 15:2-6

He want to cut off the dead wood in us.

Romans 6:23-The wages of sins is DEATH.

b] He prunes-disciplines our lives

John 15:2

c] He provides-delight in Him

John 15:7-8

Moving forward with God

Life has its ups and downs. Sometimes we do really well in all the various spheres of our lives. We experience amazing fellowship with God, and things at home and work go precisely according to plan. Then, there are other moments in our lives when we back-slide into sin, such as fighting with family, and struggling at work.

Both of these instances can bring us into the presence of God. The first will bring us into His throne room filled with praise, while the latter will bring us to our knees in humble surrender. But how do we approach God in the doldrums of life? What do we do when there seems to be nothing good or bad in life, or when we feel like our life is in a rut? Arthur Pink writes, "Go Forward!...We need to clearly realize there is no such thing as remaining stationary in the spiritual life: if we do not progress-we inevitably retrograde... Your history this year will either be one of going forward-or backsliding."

We are in a race. Anyone who has been in a race knows that the race needs to be finished. It does not matter, necessarily, how strongly we start the race. If we give up running after God in the middle of our lives, our whole race will be in vain.

However we are doing spiritually, God encourages us to move forward with Him in His eternal presence. We are stubborn; we are rebellious. Yet God says of His people in Hosea 2:14, "Therefore, I am now going to allure her, I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her."

~Living Life

Go!

Sermon title: Go!

Key Scripture: Mark 16:15

Preacher: Pastor Daniel Khong

Matthew 28:10

1) Get up!

We are the key to unlock God's unlimited power.

"He said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation."

~ Mark 16:15

John 5:8-9

God's alarm clock is ringing now! Stop hitting the snooze button! Hitting the snooze button for the 1st and 2nd time, you might be just on time. But hitting it the 3rd and 4th time, we will be late!

2) Get out!

Live right for God. Look right to reach out to people.

The kingdom of God is inside you, so bring the kingdom out!

Jesus is always in the Go.

After you unlock God's unlimited power, you have to unleash it.

Hidden God

God declares that He is always with us. He is with us wherever we go. If we go to Antarctica, He is there. If we go to the moon, God is still there. God is in the deepest, darkest caves, and He is in the farthest reaches of space.

Even so, just because God is everywhere does not mean we constantly feel His presence. There are obviously times in our lives when we really do feel the very presence of God, perhaps during worship or times of intense prayer. But just as there are moments when we feel His presence, there are moments when we do not.

When we don't feel the presence of God, is it just because we are running away from Him? Is it because we are in the midst of rebellion against God, or is it because we are lost in the fleshy desires of sin? The answer needs to be a clear and resounding "NO!" Sometimes God hides Himself from us.

James Smith writes: "God hides himself. To hide is to conceal his beauty, to veil his face...so that we cannot perceive his purpose, or understand his designs in his dispensations. The Lord sometimes hides himself from us in times of trouble, in seasons of sickness, and when suffering from painful disappointments. This he does-to prove us-to reprove us-to improve us-and to instruct us."

But this does not mean that God has abandoned us. God is always with us, even when He conceals Himself. Even when we can't feel God, we still need to cry out to Him. God will not hide Himself forever.

~Living Life

Touched by the Holy Spirit

Today's service was a great one. I felt the presence of God so strong in our midst. Pastor Dennis Balcombe came and preached. He talked to us about the Holy Spirit. We spoke in tongues and I can feel that the Holy Spirit touched me. My tears kept running without stopping until the service ends. Thank You Holy Spirit for Your touch!:)

It's your turn to live by the power of the Holy Spirit

Sermon title: It's your turn to live by the power of the Holy Spirit

Key Scripture: Acts 1:8, 2:1-4

Preacher: Pastor Wes Richards

In our own strength, we are weak.

Galatians 5

When we live by the Holy Spirit, we will receive His power.

When we encounter God, we will experience His presence.

When the Holy Spirit come over you, you will be able to speak boldly and see supernatural miracles.

Acts 3:6

We need the Holy Spirit because there will be opposition from the enemies.

The purpose of the Holy Spirit is to bring people closer to God and also to be more and more like God.

John 16:8

Galatians 5:16

Galatians 5:22-23

If you are baptized by the Holy Spirit, you will be filled with the fruit of the Spirit.

Grace is leaving

Grace is leaving soon and I'm going to miss her so much! What should I buy for them for children and graduation Lord? Or should I buy a different one for Grace? How?

Seek and Save the lost

Sermon title: Seek and Save the lost (He didn't say it was the title)

Key scripture: Luke 19:9-10

Preacher: Pastor Bert Pretorius

1 Corinthians 11:1

2 Corinthians 5:17

Reconcile people to God - Seek and Save the lost

If you are saved, your job is to seek and save the lost.

Doing the ministry is not a sacrifice, it is the better life.

Luke 19:3

Devotion is a devoted time every morning with God.

Wonderful outing

Today basically is working from 0700 to 1900!! We K2's teachers have to reach at 0700 because we were going to Jurong Bird Park. After work I still stayed back to finish up some stuff. The children enjoyed a lot. I was given Claire, Wei Jun, Stella, Ling Xin and Jovan. I told them that they were obedient children so that's why they get to follow me. They are really obedient and I love them so much. When I told them that they are with me and have to follow and wait for me. They really wait for me until I said they can go. It's so easy to talk and teach them when they listen.

When I took photos of them by 3 persons and then 2 persons, after that I said I felt like taking the 5 of them. When my head move out and nearly going out where the door will be closing, they asked me to be careful. After that I gave up because it was impossible. They even thought of squeezing themselves so that I can take photos. They are really so adorable!! I kept smiling to myself because of them.

Day 12 of fasting

Today is my 12th day of fasting which I'm fasting from dinner. There is a bit of temptation to eat something. Thinking of eating supper but I want to control myself not to eat even supper. It's because I will have this thinking of hoping that the time past quickly and that after that I can eat what I want. Another reason is that it's unhealthy to eat so late and what more I am sleeping soon. I drank Milo which I always do when I'm fasting, at least my stomach gastric stop churning.

These two days been counting money for the field trips. There was so much money! I can use the whole afternoon to just count money. There is even the vitagen's money! Thank God tomorrow is the last day and it will be done. And also there isn't any money that is missing. It's a great experience though. There will be more to come when I'm a teacher.

I need to find some solution to solve my problem at not able to handle two of my boys in class. The two mischievous children is giving me a headache. Hope that they will not leave the centre with that kind of behavior. God please bless them!

Unstoppable

Sermon title: Unstoppable

Key Scripture: Romans 8:28-39

Preacher: Pastor Richard Witmer

Through His love, I am an unstoppable force. It's because we are made out of His image.

1) It's all good!

*verse 28 - all things work together for good.

Requirements:

1-For those who love God

2-Those who are called

3-According to His purposes

2) I am a person of destiny!

*verse 29-30

Jeremiah 1:4-5

Before I was formed in the womb, I exist in God's heart.

Romans 10:13

You are a person of destiny!

3) If God is for us, who can be against us?

Acts 4:12

*verse 31-34

We are justified because God pay for our sins.

~You can overcome any trials.

4) I am more than a conqueror.

*verse 35-39

It doesn't say that I am a conqueror.

It's not based on what we can do, but on who we are.

Genesis 1:21

God bless me so that I can have dominion over the earth.

Thank God!

Praise the Lord! I got through my oral assessment for my Teacher-child interaction and classroom management! It was a smooth conversation with the lecturer. She taught me some skills when we were discussing the topic. It was a nice meeting. Thank God for His presence. I kept asking God for help. So thankful that I can seek God when I'm face with difficulties. At least I won't be talking to myself in my mind.

For don't know what reason, my back ache so much, I felt like vomiting and my stomach is not feeling well which leads to diarrhea. What could be the reason that leads to this? I'm so sick with all these illness. Lord, please heal me completely! Thank You!

Rest and relax

This year has been busy to update my blog. It's either 12 posts or 15 posts a month. Most of it is the sermon on Sunday. Today is my first day of leave of the year not counting birthday leave. It's good to be able to rest on a working day. I felt relaxing even though I just stayed at home simply doing nothing but watched one episode of Dong Yi and doing some other stuff.

I cried like nobody's business when I was watching Dong Yi. It was about the poor and needy. I felt so sad for them to not be able to have a good meal while some people still can choose what they want to eat. Even though it's just a show, there must be a real situation out there somewhere. My only prayer for them is that God will protect and look after them. And that the poor and needy will be well-fed.

Today is the 6th day of fasting and prayer. This year second time of fasting. I prayed that after this period and also during this period, my family will be transformed tremendously. I also prayed that my grandma will come to accept Christ. May the Lord Jesus Christ come and touch her deeply. Lord, please protect my ah ma. Amen!:)

TCC Hougang 21st anniversary

Today is the 21st anniversary of Hougang TOUCH child care. Happy blessed birthday! The children went to Sembawang splash to play and shop for their own children's day present. Only the K2s have this privileged to choose as it's their last year.

The children having fun the whole while the teachers busy themselves through. After a whole morning and afternoon, we finally get together to sit down and eat. We celebrated the second term's birthday. Ate lots of food as our lunch is only nuggets and fishballs. I was so tired that my back ache so much and I needed to rest at the conference room.

Today didn't get to really do my things. I hope I can finish everything by tomorrow. I don't like to have things left undone and went home. I will tend to worry too much if that's so. But I need to also leave it to God.

When we were still there, I was kind of disappointed with myself. Firstly, it's because I didn't turn to God when I was met with a situation. Secondly, it's because I lacked of ideas/techniques to handle the problem. Zhi Kang was wandering off on his own to play with the exercise area. I went over to bring him back but no matter what he still refused to do so. There was a few outsiders looking thus I don't dare to really force him. I try a few ways but to no avail.

I told my manager, and she asked me to bring him back with a stern voice. I went back to try again but she came and bring him back. Sometimes, I felt so hopeless, the children sometimes don't listen to me because they think I'm easily bullied. Well, I need to try my very best to make sure the children listen to me. I'm going to think of a way. I don't like to be angry with them and talked to them with a angry tone.

God please be with me always:)

A gentle reminder...

Sermon title: A Gentle Reminder...

Key Scripture: Galatians 2:10

Preacher: Rev. Eugene Seow

-Continue to remember the poor.-

Galatians 6:9-10

For evil to exist, good man just need to do nothing.

~ How can we continue to remember the poor?

1) Make this your PRIORITY, this is God's Heart.

Luke 4:18-19

God has a heart for the poor.

The secret in success is to serve the poor.

Proverbs 31:8-9

2) Make this your PLAN, this is God's Way.

1 Corinthians 1:27

God uses the poor to reach out to the poor.

The great commission can be fulfilled through great passion.

Proverbs 28:27

Give to the poor and you will not be in want.

When God bless you, you are to be a blessings to others.

3) Make this your PASSION, this is God's compassion.

Proverbs 21:13

Proverbs 14:31

When you serve the poor, you serve God.

Matthew 25:35-36

Happy blessed 20th birthday to me!:)

Happy birthday to me,

Happy birthday to me,

Happy birthday to me~

Happy birthday to me!:)

Finally officially 20 years old! I'm no longer a teen! Live 2 decades already. HAHA! It's wonderful that God sent me down to earth on 2nd July 1991. I just simply love the date! HAHA! Today went to sentosa, underwater world and dolphin lagoon with bell the whole morning and afternoon. After that went to ION to meet Ting, Jenny & her boyfriend, Yu Da, Chong Xin, Chen Long and his girlfriend. Every birthday is a get together for all of us. I'm happy that we still can meet up with each other and everyone's birthday.

This year is my 11th year with Shi Ting. I think it's my longest friendship. It's so cool that I still am in contact with her. I hope we will never lose contact with each other. Thank God for everything. Thanks everyone who celebrated my birthday and the presents from everyone. I love all of u'll!:))

Something big is coming up!

Both the manager and supervisor talked to me today. They gave me my appraisal and asked me whether do I want to take the diploma course. I was hesitant in the beginning, as I was planning to leave and also studying full time. But I believe it's God's plan for me to stay and further my studies. Firstly, it's somehow part of my church. It's very God related. Secondly, they are sponsoring me for my study. Thirdly, I believe God has something big for me. Yeah!

It will be a very challenging road to go as I embark on this journey. I have lots of feelings now. I'm feeling anxious, scared, worried and excited. But God will sure to help me whenever I need Him, in fact when I "don't need" Him, He will still be there for me. But I believe we always need God, there is no such a time when we don't need Him. I need to have a more prayerful life so that I'm consistently engaging with God then I will not feel scared or worried.

Ok. Going to have a great day tomorrow because I have off-in lieu and I have exciting things to do. HAHA! I felt God's love and I'm so in love with You, Lord!:)

The little man who stood tall

Sermon title: The little man who stood tall

Key scripture: Luke 19:1-10

Preacher: Rev. Patrick Chew

~ 3 reasons why Zacchaeus was miserable was his:

1) Size: short

Psalms 139:13-14

2) Situation: Chief tax collector

*verse 7

Matthew 21:31

3) Sin: corrupt, greedy

Isaiah 59:2

Zacchaeus responded to Jesus by repenting publicly and he believe God will change him.

One-bite apples

During lunch time, Mrs Lim found out that there were 2 apples thrown away with only one bite for both. It was thrown away at the dustbin nearer to K2. They asked the K2 and nobody wants to admit. It's so disappointing to discover that they did this and don't want to admit. After some time of investigating, we found out that one culprit but not the other one. That person still doesn't want to own up. Doing the wrong things and doesn't want to speak up make me even more sad.

Last time it was the milk incident. Previously it was the toys. Doesn't want to finish the milk and put away. Still nobody wants to own up. Until now we still don't know who did it. Lord, please help all these children. I felt like talking to the child. I bet the child is feeling quite upset. Tears were forming at my tears when I thought about them. Doing the wrong thing is one thing. Not admitting prevent them from wanting to change.

Sometimes, I pity them as they eat the food they doesn't like. When we force them to eat, I felt so bad. I can't teach them to waste food. If not many other children will start to tell me that they doesn't want to eat too. Giving them small portion will not give them the enough nutrition. They need love a lot. I felt that as teachers, we are not showing and giving lots of love for them, at least in my class. I should and will try my best to shower them with love. I want them to grow up and graduate with a good and humble heart.

His peace enveloped me

I want to start by thanking God for His grace that he answered my prayer so that I will not be worried about today. I was quite anxious yesterday but today I just leave it to God. It all turn well and I was being myself. Hallelujah praise the Lord! His peace enveloped me.

I enjoyed my day with my children and it's an easy day and now I am looking forward to tomorrow. It's because the children will be having cooking session of omelette, scramble and sunny side up. Yippee! It will be fun!

Learn to enjoy your life with God and you will live a fulfilling life. Yeah! I will sing of the mercy of the Lord forever~ I will sing~ I will sing~ I will sing of the mercy of the Lord forever I will sing of the mercy of the Lord~

“. . . Fix your thoughts on what is true and honorable and right. Think about things that are pure and lovely and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.” (Philippians 4:8)

Turning the Hearts of children to the Father

Sermon title: Turning the Hearts of children to the Father

Key scripture: Malachi 4:5-6

Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong

2 Timothy 3:1-5

Exodus 20:12

Ephesians 6:1-3

~How to honour our fathers?

3 stages:

1) As a child, I honour my father by respecting and obeying him.

Ephesians 6:1

When we obey our parents, we obey God. If we have a problem with our parents, we have a problem with God. Obey them willingly and happily.

2) As a young adult, I honour my father by accepting and appreciating him.

When you honour your father, you accept him with all faults included.

There must be mutual acceptance and love for a harmonious family.

~ Acceptance means at least 3 things:

a] Realising that God used them to bring you into the world.

b] Listening to what they have to say.

Proverbs 23:22

c] Forgiving the mistakes they make.

Do not hold anger against your father.

Proverbs 20:20

Holding a grudge on your father is self-destruction.

3) As an older adult, I honour my father by

1 Timothy 5:8 & 4

1 John 3:1

Romans 8:15-17

Micah 7:19

Worry leads to sickness

I have been having this serious headache since Saturday. I can still do my things but when I cough, the pain is excruciating. I think I have a very slight fever. If I don't take care of myself, I might have a fever coming on. God please heal me, thanks! Ever since I started to work, I have been falling sick. Fever is a constant thing. Felt that it might be because of the virus or bacteria I caught at the centre.

Having frequent back pains too. We need to carry lots of heavy things and nobody can help you, because you are a assistant teacher. Next time if I'm a teacher and I have a AT, I will do my work with her not ask her to do alone. But for Ms Low, it's different, because after all she is a manager. She has lots of things to do so I'm somehow between a teacher and a AT. HAHA!

Got to pray for God's protection over my family, the centre and me. May the blood of Jesus cover me from head to toe. I don't want any sickness, no matter how small it may seems. I think another problem is that I worry too much about my work. Whenever, I worry about something, I will dream of it and then next I will fall sick. I should stop that and receive peace from God.

Feeling sian?

Sermon title: Feeling sian?
Key scripture: Acts 2:17-21
Preacher: Pastor Daniel Khong


How do we live large for God?
1) UP-size your APPETITE
Are we yearning more of the Holy Spirit's work?
Genesis 32:24-29
Jacob was so desperate, so hungry for God that he wrestle with God the whole night.
Are we desperate enough for God's presence?


2) UP-size your faith - "expect big"
Expect something big from God because He can and He will give it to you.
Do we ask God in intimidity or in confidence?
1 Samuel 17
When something is overwhelming us, don't straight away give up, believe that God will do something, expect big things from God.
Acts 2:17-21
God says that He will pour out His Spirit on us.

I even prayed in my sleep

My sister told me that I prayed in my sleep! HAHA! I think I'm too stress out already. I dreamt of my work again. Whenever there is something happened, I will dream of my work. But it's wonderful to know that I prayed in my sleep. Got to talk to God and listen to Him more too!:)

Father's day celebration and family gathering

Ate lots of things and it's so fulfilling. I believe that my family also enjoyed it. It's my first treat to my family, I think. HAHA! It's a blessing to be able to bless people. I love it when the whole family sit down together and eat. I just hope that next time Veronica will go home with us as there might not have anymore chance when she is married.

Happy Father's day! I love you, daddy! Thank you for all the years of caring, teaching and everything. I'm so happy to be in this family. I wish that we will have more outing or maybe travel to oversea. It's so exciting. Thank God for Your providence:)

I need a boost

Recently I have been becoming more and more tired of going to work. Not because of the children but because of the working environment and everything else. The children are my only motivation to continue. Even if I really want to leave the place, I will leave after they graduate. But before anything happens, I must go back to study. Lord, please help me to be able to go back to study English and then my early childhood diploma.

This verse is a great encouragement to me:
"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand."
(Isaiah 41:10)

Key to God's Unlimited Power

Sermon title: Key to God's Unlimited Power
Key scripture: Acts 4:23-31 & 12:1-14
Preacher: Rev. Yong Tai Tong

1) United Prayer
Acts 4:24 & 31
" 1:14
" 2:1
" 8:15 & 17 (They prayed)

2) Unceasing Prayer
Acts 1:14
" 12:5

3) Urgent Prayer
God respond to urgent prayer
Urgent means petition and begging.
Luke 11:9-13
"In ecercising faith, we must hold on to God's truths even when external facts seem to contradict it."
~ SP Lawrence Khong
Let's gear up for the 40 UP!

What is praywalking?
"Praying onsite with insight!"
Tips on praywalk:
Pray interactive
Pray Blessings (Deuteronomy 10:8)
Look around
Engage people
Pray Scriptures (Ephesians 2)
Be Sensitive to the Spirit

Class photo

I broke one of Jesslyn's birthday present! How careless I am! When the glass ball broke, I was shocked and helpless. Anyway it's already broken, no point thinking about it. So I will just forgive myself and carry on with life.

I received my K2 class photo today. To be accurate, I found it and took it when the lao shi said it was mine. I love them so much even though they don't behaviour themselves. They are my first and maybe one and only and last class. I might want to futher my studies at one of the polys. Have to speak in tongue and move in the Spirit more. Have to find time to connect to God more than connecting to internet. HAHA!

Worries

I took my assessment video for the third time today and I believe it is the last time. It's so bad for me to keep on waking the children up early. I hope that my LORD will help me to pass through this assessment. Finishing all the reports too. Hallelujah! Working working working. Studying studyin studying. My mood swing is so bad these few days. Sometimes I really hate menses a lot.

How am I going to bring Jesslyn's present to work than to orchard? The Pooh bear is so big and there is no place for me to put at my workplace. Jesus, please help me. Show me what to do with the bear! Thank You Jesus. Presents and birthday, sometimes I can really hate them. That's why there was a year when I didn't celebrate my birthday but my friend gave me a surprise.

Worrying too much is not a good thing, in fact I shouldn't be worrying. It's because God is my EVERYTHING! I should depend on Him and go to sleep now. Yeah!:)

Emotional

I'm very emotional today, Lord. Felt so frustrated and yet so disappointed. People just like to do everything for their own good. We tend to do something that we will benefit and throw other things to other people. I always tell myself that children are innocent. I kept thinking about God and depending on Him. Even though the children make me angry but still they are children. Adults make me angry then I have to leave my emotions to God. But thank God I didn't scream and shout at my children.

There was a few instances that my tears were forming around my eyes already. Forcing myself to hold back my tears and continue to be normal. I doubt there is anybody who know I'm not okay. I was thinking of changing to work at PCF. At least when they have holidays I can have holidays too. And I don't have to bathe them, pat them to sleep. I only need to face the children only for about 3-4 hours and then the next class will come in.

I want to have a day that I can spend it with GOD only and relax myself. Lord, it's so difficult to continue but I won't try to give up. So please help me to endure and be able to solve my problems. I felt that I'm always being bullied. People just like it because they know that I won't talk back or do anything. Well, God will settle for me.

June holidays are coming

Finally Parent function and PTC is over! Hallelujah! I have not have the time to be able to update my blog. Whole week was so pack that only Monday I was able to go home at 1900. Today finally can be able to stay at home after church! I was quite enjoying my day at home catching up with "The in-laws". Missed 4 episodes and now tomorrow is the last episode.

June holidays are here and the children will be having lots of fun. I only take break for the spelling! HAHA! At least it can be stopped for one month. Last week I lost my voice on Tuesday and they asked me to go back because Wednesday was our PTC. In the end, some misunderstanding then I did some work and went back home. Still haven't hand in my MC yet.

Last week I felt quite unfair because Clarinda and I received some instructions from the Supervisor. But in the end was reprimanded by the manager for listening to the instrustions and didn't approach her. Well we were wrong but she totally turn the whole thing to us. At least tell the Supervisor not to do that again in a nice way. But she didn't. She even states that she know we are new, but she was not viewing from our perspective. Well, it's unfair, but I will leave it to God to settle. God I felt unfair please help me to forgive and forget and leave it to you.

Quiet confidence in troubled waters

Sermon title: Quiet confidence in troubled waters
Key scripture: Acts 27
Preacher: Pastor Cheng Kim Meng

2 kinds of storms in our life:
-first kind is the one we bring upon ourself.
-second kind is cause by others including satanic opposition.
How can we stand tall and have the confidence?
Acts 23:11
Don't drift!
When we are in difficult crisis, we tend to give up important things rather than looking to God.
Don't discard and don't despair.
When we are face with challenges, we have anchor in the Lord.

-3 principles of anchoring in God:
1) Connect with His Presence - Don't Drift.
*verse 23-24

2) Commit to His Purpose - Don't Discard.
*verse 24
When we are faced with crisis, are we becoming more and more Christ-like?
Romans 8:28-29

3) Claim His Promises - Don't Despair.
*verse 25
Storms cannot destroy the child of God.
*verse 42-44
His plan is to give you hope and a future.

Heart of a Teacher by Paula Fox

Growing As Spirit-Beings

Sermon title: Growing as Spirit-beings
Key Scripture: Galatians 5:25
Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong

God has already pour out His Spirit.
When we always walk in the Spirit, supernatural things will always happen to you.
How strong is your Spirit man right now?

-3 truths about Spirit Beings:
1) We are Primarily Spirit Beings
Just like God is a Spirit, we are spirit too.
Genesis 2:7
1 Thessalonians 5:23 "...whole spirit, soul and body..."
Body: Physical
Soul: Personality + Emotions
Spirit: Beyond what we can think/do
Ephesians 2:1-2
Before we know God, our spirit is dead because it is being controlled by the devil.
Romans 8:10 & 16
When you accept Christ, our spirit come alive and our body is dead!

2) We are to Operate as Spirit Beings
Galatians 5:16
Ephesians 2:26
If you want to cultivate a spirit, you need to be in communion with God.
a] Operate in the Spirit not for ourselves
b] Operate in the Spirit to serve others

3) We are to Train ourselves as Spirit Beings
Hebrews 5:14
Keep operating in the Spirit.
One of the way to train is to speak in tongue.
1 Corinthians 14:4
Jude 1:20

Stop complaining

I'm so grateful for such a wonderful manager. Now then I know that my workload is slightly lighter than other ATs that has work with her before. Heard that she wants me to learn slowly and don't want to give me too much stress. So I should stop complaining to myself. Even though I felt that I have lots of things to do, that is not all the work yet. Thank God for her. I felt so encouraged. God is so good to me. I love You Lord!

Tomorrow still need to go back to centre because I haven't finish my work. They didn't ask me back but I have things to be done by Monday! God please help me to be able to finish it. I shall not complain anymore. I just hope that the PTC period will be over as soon as possible. So that we can enjoy the June Holidays even though I still need to go back to work. I want to enjoy life and bring God's word to the people!

Finally resting

I have been preparing for parent function and the video for my course and outing for K2. This month is a first busy period of the year. It's difficult for the K2s' teachers to apply leave. I have not been having proper rest until today. I was really resting in the LORD this early morning. It was like at prayer mountain, just that it's more noisy at ECP. I thank God for today!

Last Friday's parent function ends quite late and I leave the centre at about 2345. Next day work at 0700 end work at 1300. Went for class at bras basah at 1400 and ends at 1800. Rushed to Marine Parade for Gkidz at 1830 but I reached at about 1930. Ends at 2200. It was a wonderful experience and thank God that I'm able to go through it without falling apart.

Have a weird feeling about my menstration. Last month till now, my menses come 1 week and rest 1 week, come again rest again for 1 week. So weird! Lord, I hope I'm just thinking too much. Help me to not worry about anything. I believe that is because I'm too stress up. Now I realised what work life is and I understand a bit of the world. How people can just tell lie to protect themselves even in Christian's workplace.

Sometimes, I just felt like crying. That's the problem with me, I don't like to share my problems. Everytime I share my problems, something or someone will make me even more sad than my problems. So I learnt to only tell God and nobody else. I don't know whether is this right or wrong not to tell people. But I just felt more comfortable like this. That's why I prefer to not talk than talk non-stop. I can talk a lot if I want to but I just like it when I'm quiet.

I felt that that's me when I'm quiet even though sometimes it resulted in me being left out. Oh no! I think the devil is attacking me right now! God please help me not to feel emotional. I want to be happy with You! OK let me stop this right now.

Following Jesus

Sermon title: Following Jesus
Key Scripture: Matthew 4:18-22
Preacher: Rev. Edmund Chan

To be conform to the image of Jesus, we have to be transform.
The key to be Jesus' disciple is to follow Him.
~ What does "following Jesus" really mean?
1) To follow Jesus FULLY
*verse 20 & 22
Put down everything in your life and submit to Him.

2) To follow Jesus GLADLY
*verse 20 & 22 : immediately
There was a joy and it is a priviledge.
It's a call to joyous abandon.
It's a priviledge and a honor to serve God.

3) To follow Jesus ONLY
*verse 19
We have to abide in God only.
We "fly" in connection with Jesus.
Without Jesus, we can't fly at all.
When we abide in Him, He will make us fisher of men.

Thank God

Thank God for showing His great love to me. Yesterday I was helpless and at the verge of crying. Every wednesday and thursday we are supposed to bring the mattresses of K1 and K2 from music room to classroom and back. Supposedly all the teachers are to help out, but don't know where are all the teachers. Ever since the K1 AT don't come for work, the K1 teachers kept asking me to help them to bring their mattresses too. While one teacher is working late shift, the other is staying in the office doing work. Well, they are busy, me too. I have my parent function and PTC to do. Just because I'm ok with everything and I'm an AT, they can order me around in doing things that they are supposed to do. If you want me to help, I'm ok, but u want me to do it ALONE and there you are doing your own work. Then who is going to help me with my work? Actually, seriously I'm ok with helping, but my manager and my teacher told me lots of things to protect myself. Then the other side, they are asking me to do their work. Anyway, I nearly break down, because I don't know how to say no when I'm supposed to.

After work, I went for prayer meeting and my cell and God cheer me up. They comfort me. God bring people and also during the prayer, they prayed for me. It's very tough staying in child care, but the children motivates me to be there with them. If I really want to quit, I would need to wait till they graduate. Today, God sent people to show me love again. The service-learning facilitator washed our feet and it was a great blessing that I was shocked when I heard that. At first I want to reject, but it is a blessing from God. So I shouldn't reject God's love for me, and I accept it. I'm learning how to receive from others. I really want to thank God for everything that happened to me in these past 2 weeks. It's a fruitful week. Hallelujah praise the Lord!

Another busy week

First thing in the morning, I was being asked to take care of Josh, an autism child. He was crying very badly at the classroom. I was trying my very best to bring him to change into uniform but still couldn't. He told me he want to go home and doesn't want to change. In the end, we found out that his elder brother didn't go to school because today is a public holiday. He also doesn't want to go to school and he still know how to give excuses to not come to school.

Last week was a very very busy week. This week is another busy week again. I told myself not to stay until 1900 but I still stayed until 1900 then went home. There are too many things to do, still haven't finish most of it. Took the video with Angeline but was unsuccessful!:( Angeline kept smiling but doesn't want to answer my questions. Then when she can answer, it was my turn to laugh. Took 5 times and decided to video again on wed, Thurs or Fri. Lord, please help me to be able to finish it by this Fri.

Today the class attendance is only 19/27. It's so much easier to control the class when it's smaller in size. But there is always still some who will give me trouble. But it's really better, I didn't raise my voice at all!:) During the afternoon, my back started to feel uncomfortable and weird. I want to rest but there is no chance for me to rest. I need a 2 weeks break! HAHA! But I can't apply leave for 2 weeks. AAHHHHHH!!!!!! I need rest! How to rest, LORD?!

I'm going to sleep now. Nowadays been watching the 2200 show on channel U until I sleep after 2300. I believe I will be able to sleep at 2200 after the last episode ends this Wednesday. Sleep, sleep, sleep and rest, rest, rest.

Tough week

Since Tuesday I have been working from 0840 till 1900. It's not the official time, I just stayed back to finish up my work. Due to loading and unloading mattresses to and fro, some more I have to help 2 classes, all my work has to push back and do.

This week there is something happening, don't felt like typing out but it is still in "progress". Thank God for such a wonderful manager, she taught me lots of things and also helped me with lots of things that I don't know; She guide me through my assessment. She said something that woke me up. "If it's a problem, it will be a problem." I suddenly realised that I'm somehow running away just because I'm afraid to say out something affecting something.

I have to really take that step out to not be afraid to give instructions to people and also to say out when I'm actually suffering and need help. I shouldn't just do it because she is someone higher than me in position. Sad to say, that's why people always bully me. HAHA! But I'm not saying that my colleague bully me. They are wonderful people just that we are all not perfect.

This week is a tough week but thank God that He is with me, I still can hang on. There is more to come. God is training me and molding me.

Wiped out

Reached workplace at 0830 and work until 1900 with NO break! Mrs Lim asked me how come I'm so late. But I thought we were supposed to reach at 0830. Anyway, the children took photos almost for the whole day! They take photo from about 0900 till 1600! Poor children. Some even can't get to sleep.

During lunch time, the moment I want to take a bite from my hotdog bun, the children asked for second helping, ketchup, mayonnaise and watermelon. That's the problem with too many children in the class. HAHA!

When they woke up, suddenly one of the children scream and shout for me. I turned and take a look and I saw a millipede!! It was crawling around and I was too afraid and I shouted for Zhou lao shi for help. She came and killed the insect.I was so scared that I grabbed both Claire and Dao Jun by my side. HAHA!

After work, I brought all the K2 and K1 mattresses to music room! It was a great work done by me with God. HEHE~ Today too many things are happening already. 2 children was being rude with me. Oh man~ I'm too easily bullied already. The children purposely ignored my instructions! Lord please help to manage this class of children.

Badly sick

Yesterday morning woke up felt weird. I still went to church and felt sleepy and very cold. When I reached home I felt sick so I took my temperature and it was 37.7 degree Celsius. After that I couldn't take it I fell asleep. Then I woke up my temperature was 38.0 degree celsius. I kept feeling nausea and I vomited thrice! I vomit until there is nothing to vomit, I vomited my gastric juice. I cried and cried to God asking Him to heal me. I got a severe headache that I couldn't take it. I was suffering so much. Thank God today when I woke up I was feeling quite ok. Now don't have fever but still feeling dizzy. Heavenly Father, please heal me completely! Thank You, Amen!

Do you love Me?

Sermon title: Do you love Me?
Key Scripture: John 21:15-17
Preacher: Rev. Yong Tai Tong

~ 2 major concerns on Jesus' heart:
1) Peter's well-being - Jesus wanted to restore Peter.
Jesus came to restore Peter's heart to take away the barrier that is blocking him to have a good relationship with Jesus.
Jesus is concern about His every individual disciples.

2) The Church's well-being - Jesus wanted the Church to be restore.
Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."
"Take care of my sheeps."
"Feed my sheeps."
How do we love Jesus?

~How to consolidate a new believer?
- iCARE -
1) intercession
Luke 22:31-32

2) Concern
God prepare breakfast and set up a fireplace for His disciples.

3) Availability
Mark 3:14
a) Regular time
b) Adhoc times

4) Relationship
John 21:5
John 15:15
1 Thessalonians 2:8

5) Equipping
Mark 3:14-15
Ephesians 4:11-13

Children's drawings

This picture was drawn by Yi Jie. He actually was drawing this girl and himself. He told that girl about the drawing and I heard and saw that. So I asked him what about me, he said, "Oh! This is you." Then he start drawing me bigger than them. HAHA! So cute!XD

This was actually very small. One box was actually smaller than their own foot. But this picture doesn't show that it is very small.

This is a score by Yi Jie. It's upside down. Supposed to be X1 and O1. I played tic-tac-toe with him and both of us score 1 point each. Mine was the O1. When I played with him, other children also wants to play with me. They are so cute.

Too loaded

Dao Jun is the second child who was sick and couldn't celebrate his birthday in school. He kept calling me but I couldn't really heard him because I was talking to another child. The moment I turned around and answer him, he said he want to vomit and immediately vomit in front of me. I quickly jumped back and nearly fall, as the back of me there are chairs. I didn't even have the chance to say, "OK quickly go!" Before that he already vomited. The poor child who was seated nearby couldn't take it, vomited too. My cake was quite near and I couldn't eat it:( Poor child kept looking forward to his birthday, but end up sick. May God bless him!

After school, I finished my work at 1830. Nearly didn't have the time to eat. We were rushing to eat. Zhang lao shi was sick and I have to do everything by myself. I used the trolley and push all the 27 mattresses! Thank God I managed it! I always will forget one thing when I'm too busy. I forgot to write down something in the logbook! Lord please always remind me of things that I will forget. Let me not be so forgetful. I think I would need to be in centre early so to prepare my things. Oh yah! While I'm typing, I suddenly remembered that I need to do research on "Reduce, reuse and recycle". Have to get lots of information so that when I teach the children, I will be able to give them examples and to answer their questions.

I think I better get the information and sleep early. These few days I have not been sleeping well. Early in the morning before 0700, I was woken up by the quarrels by my mum and sis. Just too tired so I stayed in bed until my alarm clock ring. So nights!:)

God loves the little children

I was so tired when I woke up this morning. I put my alarm to snooze. Dozed off for about 2 minutes and the alarm goes again. Yesterday's home visit end quite late and couldn't finish my work so that to sleep early. Early in the morning I reached at 0815 to do work. Actual work time is 0900. I'm too hardworking already. HAHA!

The children were so disappointed that it drizzled when they were about to play the playground. The sun was bright and hot but suddenly the rain came. I quickly told Zhou lao shi and asked the children to get into shelter. They were all standing there looking at the sky. Some started to sing, "Rain rain go away, come again another day. Little children wants to play." One of the girl still say let's sing again so that the rain will go away. Who knows the rain really stopped when we reached centre.

Li Wee said my voice is getting louder and louder in the classroom. I said if I don't shout at them they won't listen to me. They will definitely treat me as invincible. She also agree with me. This bunch of K2s, you can't be gentle with them. Once you are gentle with them, they won't listen to you. But if you talk nicely to them, try to reason with them will help too. But sometime you reason with some of them, they will not care about it.

Anyway I got to go and sleep now. Tomorrow I still have another 2 more home visit. During their nap time I still have service learning class. Nights and God bless!:)

Lord please be my checklist

LORD!!!!!! I'm speechless. Everything coming all at the same time. There is so much to do in so little time. Now I have to note down every single detail of what I'm supposed to do. If not I will sure to forget something. There is so many things coming in may. Parent-teacher conference(PTC), parent function, classroom management classes, photography session, service learning classes(continuation) and many more which are yet to come. IN ONLY MAY! And I just remember that I forgot to type out the dinosaur rhyme in A3 size paper! PTC and parent function are important things, imagine you have 27 children including 6 special needs children!! 27 children is already a handful in addition they are a bunch of K2 children! 2 classes in one week. Classroom management still got examination! Imagine the stress! Photography session doesn't just stop there. We have to collate who wants the photo, how many sets, what kind (4R, 5R and 8R with frame), count money. After all that still need to check photos, sort out and make sure it is given out. It is not an easy job to do. Lord, please be my checklist so that I won't miss out on anything. Thanks!:)

Giving love is a priviledge

I've been contemplating whether to cut my hair short now or wait till June. 2 months may result in my hair being too long, but I always cut during school holidays. That's a habit of mine. If I don't cut, it's so hot nowadays, and it make me sweat so much. So Lord, please give me the wisdom. XD

Rushing to work was a very tiring thing to do. Today met Wei Yu on the way to school but only could say "Hi" to her, can't walk with her to school. She is so cute to the max! I love her and Yi Ling. When they are angry, they are so cute too! Wei Yu likes to act and Yi Ling can be a model. HAHA!

Xavier kept on asking me lots of questions today. Ever since he changed from the back to the middle, he has not stop talking. Actually he is very cute but don't know why he always make me angry. Have to work on him. No matter how disobedient the children are, there is one part of them will make me love them and cover up their disobedience. Of course I love them with an unconditional love.

I shall sleep earlier! I slept late last night and was unable to have a wonderful night. I think I have a weird dream but couldn't be able to remember it. Tomorrow still have 2 home visit to do. God please give me Your strength to continue!

The "Foolishness" of the Cross

Sermon title: The "Foolishness" of the Cross
Key scripture: 1 Corinthians 1:18-25
Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong

Death is so ugly, it has to die!
~3 reaction of God towards death:
1) Death is so ugly that God cried.
John 11:35 "Jesus wept."
Hebrews 2:15
" 9:27
Romans 3:23
Isaiah 53 (Sheeps went astray)
Romans 6:23
Luke 19:41 (Jesus wept)

2) Death is so ugly that God died.
Hebrews 2:14-15
1 Peter 3:18
Before Jesus die, He suffers.

3) Death is so ugly that death died.
When Jesus rose from the dead, death died.
John 11:25-26
Jesus has broken the power of death.
1 Corinthians 15:25-26
Death is a commencement.

God cares

Yesterday at centre I was quite frustrated at my chinese teacher. One of the child didn't bring back his spelling homework. I told her that we forget to give but she push all the blame on me. She told me next time to put inside his bag in the morning in order not to forget. It's a good idea, but yester afternoon I was having a lesson when that child was going home. She was supposed to help give it to him. Seriously I was very frustrated but God calm me down.

I sent a message to let my manager know and she didn't scold me but helped me to solve the problem. That was a relief. God showed me His love, He protects me and that instant I felt like crying. Thank You Jesus! I love You! Later that night I asked God for His forgiveness for being angry with that teacher.

Went to my cell's TGIF (TGIT). I was happy that Shi Ting is interested in knowing more about Christ. Hope that she will be coming for sunday service.

Today went to mummy's cell TGIF. Played with the children and they are happy to receive the present I gave it to them. Glad that they enjoyed themselves. Came back home and have a 2 hours nap. I felt that I'm becoming more like a child now. HEHE~ Enjoying my everyday life with children. It seems like everyday I'm seeing children except some sunday.

I thought of volunteering at elderly home care but don't know where and how to start. I want to reach out to them. Hmm~

Lousy feeling

Past 2 days can't use laptop, quite frustrated. My mother changed the internet from moderm to a wireless type. Rose used it in the afternoon but it's still ok, but when I was using it in the evening it can't be use. Today asked mummy to call the person and thank God the person can come in today and help us.

Zhang lao shi was on MC and couldn't come in. It was quite tiring today and I was rushing over so many things. I want to rest! Really looking forward for Good Friday so that I can rest. At least 3 days without thinking about work. Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

I have feeling weird. I don't know what happened to me and don't know why I'm feeling that way but don't know what I'm feeling. It's just so frustrated. Don't know is it the workload or other things. Lord Lord, please help me! Give me peace and comfort. Thanks!

A child's strength

This happened when I was telling a child not to spray at me during their water play. He purposely doesn't want to listen to me, so I took away his spray. He was sad that he couldn't continue playing so he kept on saying, "Don't want! I don't want!" I told him that is the consequence of being rude. He kept saying no and in the end hugged me and cry. I lost my balance and that was the result of my slipper, but actually the slipper is also quite worn out already. Seeing him so sad, I told him that he musn't do that again and he promised me. So for the whole day I was dragging my foot with the slipper. I have other shoe but I prefer slipper. HAHA!

I AM TIRED!

I AM TIRED! These few days have been shutting my mouth from saying this. It's because if once I said, I will really become tired so I must believe that I will have lots of energy. But I can't hold it anymore. I'm really tired, physically and mentally. Thank God I'm not spiritually tired. I'm still full of energy for God.

My manager finally come back to class. The children misses her a lot. As soon as she come back, I've lots of things to do. When she was away I was finding things to do and now the work appear. Funny isn't it?

Anyway I got to go and sleep. Ciaos!:)

Innocent and adorable

One of the child came to me to ask me to apply medicine for him. When I saw it was a scratch mark with visible nail shape, I asked him who did it. He told me it was from one of the Chinese teacher. I asked him the second time whether is it true and told him he cannot tell lie. He said yes and he didn't tell lie. I was speechless and don't know what to do except apply medicine for him. I thought of asking the teacher but I got a feeling that the teacher will said she didn't do it. But I'm not helping the child like this. I hope that the child's parent will complain. Am I silly to think that way? I'm troubled by the incident.

My manager was on leave so I have to tell the story of Jesus to them. Although they appeared to be bored by the story but it went into their mind. After telling the story to the children about why and how Jesus died for our sins, they said, "Jesus said cannot tell lie." It's when one of the child came and complained to me and the other said he was telling lie. HAHA! When I said Jesus loves children like you you you you and you, they were smiling from chin to chin. One child who is quite mischievous in class asked me, "Why they want to kill Jesus? He didn't do anything wrong mah." He sounded quite angry.

They taught me a lot through their actions and behaviours. and actually they are quite attentive. Especially that boy who asked me why they want to kill Jesus. He showed me that he cares for innocent people. Deep down in me I was crying. Yes! Jesus was innocent but He died for our sins. He paid for our debts and yet many of us still continue to sin and reject God. We are living in the end time. We Christians should be passionate in saving the lost souls! Fight for their lives! Fight with the Devil, We have the Holy Spirit who is powerful than the Devil. HALLELUJAH!

Ain't Gonna Be A Baby No More!

Sermon title: Ain't gonna be a baby no more!
Key scripture: Hebrews 5:11-6:3
Preacher: Rev. Patrick Chew

It is NOT ok to be a spiritual baby forever.
Ephesians 4:11-15
God is very concern when we are not growing.
Once the foundation is built, move on with the other construction!
Don't keep on building and building the foundation.

~How can we move on to maturity?
3 Attitudes to move on:
1) Be determined to grow
*verse 1-3
1 Peter 2
Make that decision to grow!
Have the desire and have the commitment to grow.
Take that step!

2) Be eager to learn
*verse 11
Mattew 5:6
Spiritual lethargy prevents you from learning.

3) Be committed to practice
*verse 13-14
Say 'YES' to the Holy Spirit.
Say 'NO' to the flesh.
God is speaking to us all the time, but are we listening?
When God speak to you, do you obey?
If you ignore God's voice, sooner it will become softer and softer.
Matthew 7:24-27
How deep is our roots?
Ephesians 5:15-18
Be ready when God call us to go.

Poor thing

Today one of my children supposed to celebrate his birthday in school. He never celebrate his birthday in school before, this year was his first year to celebrate it in school. But he suddenly have fever. When I want to take his ear temperate, he kept telling me not pain and he don't have fever. He really doesn't want to go home. When I said go and pack up, he went and play with his friends. Brought him to office still said he has no pain and was very frustrated. Poor little child. Last year and yet can't have that experience. May the LORD bless him abundantly!:)

I'm extremely happy!

"For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places." (Ephesians 6:12)

I'm extremely happy! God answered my prayers. I fast and pray for my dear friends and family. I want them to be save. I'm going to continue to fast and pray till that day. 2 friends comfirm going for the TGIF party and one friend comfirm coming for service. Hallelujah praise the LORD! I'm really very happy and I hope that the party will touch them deeply with God's love. I pray that those attending the party will also be able to attend service on the following sunday! Amen and amen!

A quick update: This whole week my manager didn't come in due to some family issues and her training. I gathered the children and I have a few practice. It was becoming easier and easier. I believe it's a good experience for me.

I found out that my children likes to call me "mummy" and they like to hug me a lot. They always call me just to say "I like you". Then I will say I love you too. Even other classes children. It make my love for the children grow deeper. They are just so lovable beyond what you can imagine. But sometime you really am very angry with them, because you want them to be well-behave and yet they are giving you trouble. HAHA!

Spiritual food: "Replace worry with prayer. How do you do that? You make the decision to pray whenever you catch yourself worrying." ~ Elizabeth George

A runaway train

Sermon title: A runaway train

Key scripture: Joel 2:28-32; Acts 2:17-21; Jeremiah 29:11

Preacher: Rev. Eugene Seow

We are living in Acts 2 but we are not Acts 2.

2 important questions:

1) Who do you say that I am?

2) What shall we do?

Acts 2:36-37

We are not what we do, but we do what we are.

~What should we do?

1) Repent and be baptized - Be saved

Acts 2:38

What does it take to be the child of God?

John 1:12

When you receive Jesus Christ, you are submitting your life to God, the Giver.

Repentance is the Doorway of God's blessings.

Galatians 2:20

We must come to the cross in a daily basis.

Are you on a daily basis demonstrating who you are? (As a child of God)

2) Received the Holy Spirit - Be submitted

Acts 2:38-39

Acts 1:8

We need to be in partnership with the Holy Spirit.

We must be sensitive to the Holy Spirit.

You hear what you want to hear.

*verse 17-18

3) Reach out and serve - Be happy

Acts 2:44-47

God is the driver of the runaway train.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

*verse 21

Cool day

I was too tired to shout at the children today. Yesterday didn't sleep early so I was sleepy. I like it because I didn't need to raise my voice and also the children listen to me more when I don't shout at them so much. But still some need to scold. Anyway I just want God to be with me wherever I go and whatever I do. Let me rest in You, Lord. Please carry me all the way.

Funny thing

Today the day end quite fast and I thought it was cool. Didn't get any scolding. My manager suddenly told me that I should take the spelling homework for her every monday morning together with the notebook. She said I forgot. But I didn't forget, because she didn't tell me before. She always remember to take it with her when she come. But today don't know what went wrong. But anyway I'm the assistant, when she forget I should remember for her. I learned one thing about her. She will forget things and I just have to go along with her. If not what can I do?

And if our God is with us...

Sermon title: And if our God is with us...

Key scripture: Mark 4:35-41

Preacher: Pastor Daniel Khong

"Love is what we are born with, fear is what we learn here on earth."

~Who is this God with us?

1) He is the one who can calm the storm.

*verse 39

John 16:33

In this world you will have trouble!

2) He is the one who will see you to the other side.

Jeremiah 29:11

*verse 35

"The road to success is dotted with many parking places."

Deuteronomy 31:6

He is on the boat with you/us/me.

3) He is the one who is unstirred by the storm.

We are on the winning team because God is in our team.

*verse 41

Jesus is sleeping on a cushion through the storm.

He is trying to get comfortable and purposefully sleeping.

verse 40:

"Why are you so afraid?"

"Do you still have no faith?"

When we response in faith, we will say "since our God is with us..."

Some updates

Tuesday we started our cell with the brothers. It was quite ok. I'm very interested in inviting my friends and bringing them to the event. I hope that the time come quickly. I pray that God will take away my fear of stepping out in faith. So that I will daringly believe that my friends will come despite of the distance and also it's a Christian event. So Lord I pray that You will open up their hearts and soften it. Let them be willing to come and reject any excuses they have. Remove any obstacles that they will have or have which prevent them from coming. Thank You Jesus!

Today just found out that my child really has a FACEBOOK account! I added him. Don't know whether can we add children or not but I just add. It's so cute to find out that my child 6 years old know about FB. HAHA!

I went for tea with EDO whom is none other than Pastor Eugene Seow. Know quite a lot about him and felt that he is really a cool person and boss.

Actually wanted to update more but very lazy and also tiring. It's because I want to go offline already. So if there is any interesting of juicy news I will update again. HAHA!