Feel like slping 4eva

I really feel like slping 4eva & nv eva wake up..

I'm so tired of everything..

tired of gg to sch..

tired of studying..

tired of thinking sth that I always can't get right..

tired of making decisions..

tired of being stuck @ sth & yet I dunno how to ask for help..

tired of everything..

but my life still have to move on..

I can't possibly die when I felt like giving up..

Ahrx..!!

I dunno what am I talking abt..

I dunno y am I feeling so negative..

btw I've stop cont. to work at marble slab creamery..

bcos I dun think it suits mi & it's way too far..

so sry Pam & Lina..

sry that I left u'll dere..

Sry..!!

Celebrating Ying's bdae

Last fri was damn rushing..
After sch dere is projects to finish..
den I went back home to prepare things b4 gg to Ying's bdae chalet..
reached dere @ 9plus @ nite..
was damn disappointed with when we can't check in..
e person @ e check in place said that if I book e chalet with my name means I have to produce my NTUC membership card upon checking in..
but den e thing is that I dun have any..
den e person asked us to add on $100 more..!!
den I asked e person den y e previous time when I came dere dey didn't say anything until now I check in den dey make noise..
some more that time I didn't check in is somebody else who helped mi to check in..
den in e end talk talk talk until Ying's father just pay e money..
I've learnt a lesson..
e next day which is sat..
bell went home early in e morning..
we stay in e chalet doing nth but watching show..
den Ying's cousins came & followed after that everybody else came..
enjoy that day but den was quite tired..
every moment felt like slping but den in e end stayed up late until abt 3plus..
hahax..
in e end dun have e energy to go to church..
went home straight away slp until 2pm..
woke up & did my stuff..
now I'm tired & I'm gg to slp..
will upload e photos when I receive it..

Need rest

Woahx..!!
today have e nursing lab theory test..
I didn't really go & revise den I felt that it's quite diff..
but den I hope I can @ least pass..
well after that Lina, Adeline, Priya, Pamela & I went to AMK hub to watch NEW MOON..!!
it was so damn nice..!!
but den I dunno y dere will b ppl who dun like..
anyway I was kinda disappointed when it came to e ending..
it was not an ending @ all..!!
so sickening..!!
how can Edward asked that qns & it ends dere..?!?!
now we have to wait till one more yr so that we can watch eclipse..!!
ok nvm shall go & read my books..
e books r more interesting than e movie..
but den I like both..
well today I didn't really have e time to spend @ home with my family members..
these few days kept on coming back home late & I spent way too much on food..!!
I should control e temptation..!!
ok gotta slp early as tml I'm having a full day in sch..

As busy as a BEE

There is too many things for mi to complete..!!

but I rather have things to do den slack all day..

ytd went for job training & I reached home @ 12midnite..!!

didn't have e chance to start revising..

only until today after sch I rushed back home den I start my revision..

but den I was too occupied by other modules..

I'm distracted..!!

den I hurry to study my nursing lab theory test..

well I think I might not b able to do well but hope @ least I get a pass..

hahax..

this wk is gonna b damn busy..

have to start both my 1500 & 350 words essays soon..!!

if not I sure dun have time to complete..

some more it's like sch reopen e 1st day we have to hand in alr..

ohhx my gosh..!!

ok I have to put oil & cont. studying..

The blood of our Identity

Sermon title: The blood that saved your face - From shame to significance (The blood of our identity)
Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong
Main verse: Isaiah 50:6-7; 52:13-15

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Pastor Nina's preaching:
You can b a leader..!!
You can b a people-builder..!!
If you want to b a leader, what you must do..??
1] Follow Jesus' example
John 13:15

2] Set an example
1 Timothy 4:12
~In speech: How do I talk to people?
~In life: How do I live my life?/How is m conduct?
~In love: Do I really show love to other people?
~In faith: Do I really trust God?
~In purity: Do I live a life of integrity?

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-The face represent our identity.
-Jesus bled for us because:
1)Our identity is lost when we sinned.
Genesis 3:7, 11
Exodus 3:10
" 3:11 "Who am I..."
" 3:12 "...I'm with you..."
-It's not abt who u r, it's abt who God is.
-If u know who God is, you will noe who u r, bcos ur identity is in God!
Galatians 3:28

2)Our identity determines our destiny
Isaiah 62:2
Luke 1:36
Genesis 1:1-2
-God does not call people by their weakness, He call people of who they r & who they will become.
Judges 6:11-12
2 Corinthians 5:17, 20-21

The Blood Of Our Identity

Thx MS Tan CH

today Miss Tan CH was so gd..

she bought for e 4 of us a choco cake .. hershey's dark choco .. & a chain thingy..

she said we done a gd job..

bcos dere is only a few student will really put their whole heart into doing it..

somemore we volunteer it on our own..

but den I felt that we still need to improve loads..

well today was our PNPE presentation..

we did a gd job..

it's jux that we missed out e long term evaluation..

but den Mdm Ng TL thinks that we r ok bcos she said she didn't comment much means we done a gd job..

after sch Lina Pam & I went to AMK polyclinic to take our thyphoid vaccination..

it cost us $25..!!

but we need it to work in e F&B line..

e nurse who injected us was v. chatty..

but den it's gd..

bcos nurses should comm. with their pt..

ahrx..I dunno what am I talking abt..

hahax..

anyway when it was done I felt that I lose a bit of hearing & den I couldn't breathe well..

I thgt I was gg to faint..

but den I kept on asking God to help mi..

den I was ok..!!

e jab was nth & it's not that pain..

I think it's bcos I'm alr used to taking injection..

but still I'm scared of injection..!!

ok I'm being talkative & talking rubbish..

Need slp

Well today was quite slpy & my eyes was so puffy in e morning..
who asked mi to cry so much..??
den so ugly I dun even dare to look @ ppl..
luckily it slowly recovered & I was back to normal..
being lame as usual..
hahax..
I'm seriously damn tired..
I need to go to slp alr..

STRUGGLING

Well today we have SBL for nursing skill..

I was v. nervous on how r we gg to do..

my preparation for this SBL was so little..

I should have prepare earlier & read up more..

I didn't..

so during e SBL I was quite tense..

somemore it was damn cold inside..

I was really STRUGGLING..!!

I felt that I kept on pushing e job to Xin Ru..

I'm not doing much..

bcos I jux felt that I dunno what to do..

I'm scared of being stuck..

I jux dun dare to do e things..

I jux dunno y I'm not depending on God..

y didn't I seek God when I'm STRUGGLING..??

when it's coming to e end we was really stress up & really dunno what to do..

we was like "oxygen therapy or suctioning 1st..??"

den e pt(manequin) dere lying down feeling breathless..

some more e sp02 drop until 88% alr..!!

I really cnt think fast..

when I start to panick I cnt think well..

den I will start to lose control of my emotion..

den someone from e class shouted sth like, "quick, e pt(manequin) is dying..!!"

that was when I really blank out..

immediately I felt so exhausted by everything..

this is really not a course that I love a lot..

I jux study for e sake of studying..

I study bcos I dun wanna bcome a gd for nth person..

I dun blame that person for saying that..

it jux somehow alert my mind that I'm not acting fast..!!

den when dey annouced that simulation has ended..

I broke down..

it jux felt like e pt(manequin) has died..

I can't even do a proper job in sch yet how am I gg to face e real situation in e future..??

although e lecturers said sth that makes mi happy..

but I still felt v. bad abt it..

like every other lecturers who said if u dun like this course..

& u dread to come to sch u won't get to do well in it & love it..

everytime when dere is a project..

I felt that I didn't give in much..

when e grp did well I jux felt that I dun deserve it..

I noe it's v. negative..

but den no matter what, I noe what I'm thinking..

I didn't give my v. best in doing projects..

I always slack around..

den when I was abt to argue a point..

I jux felt so tired to talk more..

bcos I felt so stupid..

I noe God wanna put mi in this course is for a purpose..

but I dunno what's e purpose..

is God training mi for e future..??

is He trying to guide mi to walk His way..??

to let mi noe that He put so many things in my life so that I will learn to depend on Him alone..??

well I want that..

ever since I enter this course I have been STRUGGLING with loads of things..

I felt that I can't c my future..

I dunno what I'm gg to do after 3 yrs..

am I gg to cont. my study in nursing course..??

what can I do if I quit half way..??

but den I noe I have to carry e cross everyday of my life..

I will sure go through more suffering & hardship in e coming days..

bcos Jesus also went through that..

it's jux that it's e diff thing..

Jesus did it for us..

He did it to save our life..

so sth inside mi tells mi that I should not give up on this course..

bcos e devil is attacking mi..

he is trying to make mi feel v. lousy & lead mi astray..

but I will not bcos e LORD will help mi..

God will allow diff into our life..

but God will only allow when it's not beyond our limit..

He noes mi v. well so I will hang on until e v. end..

it is not finish when God didn't said so..

well with so much talking..

I wanna thx God for everything that He has done for mi even though I dun deserve it..

I LOVE U, LORD!!

Vampire bite

This 2 mosquito bites looks like a vampire has biten mi..

hahax..

cool right..?!?!

well mayb for it's cool & cute..XP

anyway today alr cfm with e lecturer that we r gg to Jap next yr..

e London lecturer kept on saying that dey r waiting for e tour agency..

dunno have to wait for how long lohx..

so sickening..!!

anyway go Jap can learn their language.culture.hair style.fashion style.make up style..!!

ohhx my gosh dere is so many wonderful things that I can learn dere..!!

have to save loads of money..!!

ahrx..!!

4got to check e pay from CGH..

Su told Wan that she had received it..

actually thgt of spending e money & saving a bit..

hahax..

but I think I will spend a bit for e sake of Jap..!!

Finishing well

Sermon title: Finishing well
Main verse: 2 Chronicles 14:1-6 ; 15:2, 7 & 12 ; 16:1-13
Preacher: Rev. Melvyn Mak

How can we finish well in our lives?
1)The danger of a divided heart - Repent and remove.
2 Chronicles 16:7
Proverbs 3:5-6
2 Chronicles 15:17
=> Although we are fully committed to God, we still keep the "High places" in our heart.:
a]Sex
b]Money
Deuteronomy 17:17
1 Kings 1:1-2
1 Timothy 6:10
Psalm 37:4
-It is more blessed to give than take.

2)The danger of a defiant heart - Return and redo.
2 Chronicles 16:10, 12
Phillippians 3:12-14
2 Timothy 4:6-8
Joshua 24:15

Finishing well