I took my assessment video for the third time today and I believe it is the last time. It's so bad for me to keep on waking the children up early. I hope that my LORD will help me to pass through this assessment. Finishing all the reports too. Hallelujah! Working working working. Studying studyin studying. My mood swing is so bad these few days. Sometimes I really hate menses a lot.
How am I going to bring Jesslyn's present to work than to orchard? The Pooh bear is so big and there is no place for me to put at my workplace. Jesus, please help me. Show me what to do with the bear! Thank You Jesus. Presents and birthday, sometimes I can really hate them. That's why there was a year when I didn't celebrate my birthday but my friend gave me a surprise.
Worrying too much is not a good thing, in fact I shouldn't be worrying. It's because God is my EVERYTHING! I should depend on Him and go to sleep now. Yeah!:)
Everyone has a story to tell
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Emotional
I'm very emotional today, Lord. Felt so frustrated and yet so disappointed. People just like to do everything for their own good. We tend to do something that we will benefit and throw other things to other people. I always tell myself that children are innocent. I kept thinking about God and depending on Him. Even though the children make me angry but still they are children. Adults make me angry then I have to leave my emotions to God. But thank God I didn't scream and shout at my children.
There was a few instances that my tears were forming around my eyes already. Forcing myself to hold back my tears and continue to be normal. I doubt there is anybody who know I'm not okay. I was thinking of changing to work at PCF. At least when they have holidays I can have holidays too. And I don't have to bathe them, pat them to sleep. I only need to face the children only for about 3-4 hours and then the next class will come in.
I want to have a day that I can spend it with GOD only and relax myself. Lord, it's so difficult to continue but I won't try to give up. So please help me to endure and be able to solve my problems. I felt that I'm always being bullied. People just like it because they know that I won't talk back or do anything. Well, God will settle for me.
There was a few instances that my tears were forming around my eyes already. Forcing myself to hold back my tears and continue to be normal. I doubt there is anybody who know I'm not okay. I was thinking of changing to work at PCF. At least when they have holidays I can have holidays too. And I don't have to bathe them, pat them to sleep. I only need to face the children only for about 3-4 hours and then the next class will come in.
I want to have a day that I can spend it with GOD only and relax myself. Lord, it's so difficult to continue but I won't try to give up. So please help me to endure and be able to solve my problems. I felt that I'm always being bullied. People just like it because they know that I won't talk back or do anything. Well, God will settle for me.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
June holidays are coming
Finally Parent function and PTC is over! Hallelujah! I have not have the time to be able to update my blog. Whole week was so pack that only Monday I was able to go home at 1900. Today finally can be able to stay at home after church! I was quite enjoying my day at home catching up with "The in-laws". Missed 4 episodes and now tomorrow is the last episode.
June holidays are here and the children will be having lots of fun. I only take break for the spelling! HAHA! At least it can be stopped for one month. Last week I lost my voice on Tuesday and they asked me to go back because Wednesday was our PTC. In the end, some misunderstanding then I did some work and went back home. Still haven't hand in my MC yet.
Last week I felt quite unfair because Clarinda and I received some instructions from the Supervisor. But in the end was reprimanded by the manager for listening to the instrustions and didn't approach her. Well we were wrong but she totally turn the whole thing to us. At least tell the Supervisor not to do that again in a nice way. But she didn't. She even states that she know we are new, but she was not viewing from our perspective. Well, it's unfair, but I will leave it to God to settle. God I felt unfair please help me to forgive and forget and leave it to you.
June holidays are here and the children will be having lots of fun. I only take break for the spelling! HAHA! At least it can be stopped for one month. Last week I lost my voice on Tuesday and they asked me to go back because Wednesday was our PTC. In the end, some misunderstanding then I did some work and went back home. Still haven't hand in my MC yet.
Last week I felt quite unfair because Clarinda and I received some instructions from the Supervisor. But in the end was reprimanded by the manager for listening to the instrustions and didn't approach her. Well we were wrong but she totally turn the whole thing to us. At least tell the Supervisor not to do that again in a nice way. But she didn't. She even states that she know we are new, but she was not viewing from our perspective. Well, it's unfair, but I will leave it to God to settle. God I felt unfair please help me to forgive and forget and leave it to you.
Quiet confidence in troubled waters
Sermon title: Quiet confidence in troubled waters
Key scripture: Acts 27
Preacher: Pastor Cheng Kim Meng
2 kinds of storms in our life:
-first kind is the one we bring upon ourself.
-second kind is cause by others including satanic opposition.
How can we stand tall and have the confidence?
Acts 23:11
Don't drift!
When we are in difficult crisis, we tend to give up important things rather than looking to God.
Don't discard and don't despair.
When we are face with challenges, we have anchor in the Lord.
-3 principles of anchoring in God:
1) Connect with His Presence - Don't Drift.
*verse 23-24
2) Commit to His Purpose - Don't Discard.
*verse 24
When we are faced with crisis, are we becoming more and more Christ-like?
Romans 8:28-29
3) Claim His Promises - Don't Despair.
*verse 25
Storms cannot destroy the child of God.
*verse 42-44
His plan is to give you hope and a future.
Key scripture: Acts 27
Preacher: Pastor Cheng Kim Meng
2 kinds of storms in our life:
-first kind is the one we bring upon ourself.
-second kind is cause by others including satanic opposition.
How can we stand tall and have the confidence?
Acts 23:11
Don't drift!
When we are in difficult crisis, we tend to give up important things rather than looking to God.
Don't discard and don't despair.
When we are face with challenges, we have anchor in the Lord.
-3 principles of anchoring in God:
1) Connect with His Presence - Don't Drift.
*verse 23-24
2) Commit to His Purpose - Don't Discard.
*verse 24
When we are faced with crisis, are we becoming more and more Christ-like?
Romans 8:28-29
3) Claim His Promises - Don't Despair.
*verse 25
Storms cannot destroy the child of God.
*verse 42-44
His plan is to give you hope and a future.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Growing As Spirit-Beings
Sermon title: Growing as Spirit-beings
Key Scripture: Galatians 5:25
Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong
God has already pour out His Spirit.
When we always walk in the Spirit, supernatural things will always happen to you.
How strong is your Spirit man right now?
-3 truths about Spirit Beings:
1) We are Primarily Spirit Beings
Just like God is a Spirit, we are spirit too.
Genesis 2:7
1 Thessalonians 5:23 "...whole spirit, soul and body..."
Body: Physical
Soul: Personality + Emotions
Spirit: Beyond what we can think/do
Ephesians 2:1-2
Before we know God, our spirit is dead because it is being controlled by the devil.
Romans 8:10 & 16
When you accept Christ, our spirit come alive and our body is dead!
2) We are to Operate as Spirit Beings
Galatians 5:16
Ephesians 2:26
If you want to cultivate a spirit, you need to be in communion with God.
a] Operate in the Spirit not for ourselves
b] Operate in the Spirit to serve others
3) We are to Train ourselves as Spirit Beings
Hebrews 5:14
Keep operating in the Spirit.
One of the way to train is to speak in tongue.
1 Corinthians 14:4
Jude 1:20
Key Scripture: Galatians 5:25
Preacher: Apostle Lawrence Khong
God has already pour out His Spirit.
When we always walk in the Spirit, supernatural things will always happen to you.
How strong is your Spirit man right now?
-3 truths about Spirit Beings:
1) We are Primarily Spirit Beings
Just like God is a Spirit, we are spirit too.
Genesis 2:7
1 Thessalonians 5:23 "...whole spirit, soul and body..."
Body: Physical
Soul: Personality + Emotions
Spirit: Beyond what we can think/do
Ephesians 2:1-2
Before we know God, our spirit is dead because it is being controlled by the devil.
Romans 8:10 & 16
When you accept Christ, our spirit come alive and our body is dead!
2) We are to Operate as Spirit Beings
Galatians 5:16
Ephesians 2:26
If you want to cultivate a spirit, you need to be in communion with God.
a] Operate in the Spirit not for ourselves
b] Operate in the Spirit to serve others
3) We are to Train ourselves as Spirit Beings
Hebrews 5:14
Keep operating in the Spirit.
One of the way to train is to speak in tongue.
1 Corinthians 14:4
Jude 1:20
Friday, May 20, 2011
Stop complaining
I'm so grateful for such a wonderful manager. Now then I know that my workload is slightly lighter than other ATs that has work with her before. Heard that she wants me to learn slowly and don't want to give me too much stress. So I should stop complaining to myself. Even though I felt that I have lots of things to do, that is not all the work yet. Thank God for her. I felt so encouraged. God is so good to me. I love You Lord!
Tomorrow still need to go back to centre because I haven't finish my work. They didn't ask me back but I have things to be done by Monday! God please help me to be able to finish it. I shall not complain anymore. I just hope that the PTC period will be over as soon as possible. So that we can enjoy the June Holidays even though I still need to go back to work. I want to enjoy life and bring God's word to the people!
Tomorrow still need to go back to centre because I haven't finish my work. They didn't ask me back but I have things to be done by Monday! God please help me to be able to finish it. I shall not complain anymore. I just hope that the PTC period will be over as soon as possible. So that we can enjoy the June Holidays even though I still need to go back to work. I want to enjoy life and bring God's word to the people!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Finally resting
I have been preparing for parent function and the video for my course and outing for K2. This month is a first busy period of the year. It's difficult for the K2s' teachers to apply leave. I have not been having proper rest until today. I was really resting in the LORD this early morning. It was like at prayer mountain, just that it's more noisy at ECP. I thank God for today!
Last Friday's parent function ends quite late and I leave the centre at about 2345. Next day work at 0700 end work at 1300. Went for class at bras basah at 1400 and ends at 1800. Rushed to Marine Parade for Gkidz at 1830 but I reached at about 1930. Ends at 2200. It was a wonderful experience and thank God that I'm able to go through it without falling apart.
Have a weird feeling about my menstration. Last month till now, my menses come 1 week and rest 1 week, come again rest again for 1 week. So weird! Lord, I hope I'm just thinking too much. Help me to not worry about anything. I believe that is because I'm too stress up. Now I realised what work life is and I understand a bit of the world. How people can just tell lie to protect themselves even in Christian's workplace.
Sometimes, I just felt like crying. That's the problem with me, I don't like to share my problems. Everytime I share my problems, something or someone will make me even more sad than my problems. So I learnt to only tell God and nobody else. I don't know whether is this right or wrong not to tell people. But I just felt more comfortable like this. That's why I prefer to not talk than talk non-stop. I can talk a lot if I want to but I just like it when I'm quiet.
I felt that that's me when I'm quiet even though sometimes it resulted in me being left out. Oh no! I think the devil is attacking me right now! God please help me not to feel emotional. I want to be happy with You! OK let me stop this right now.
Last Friday's parent function ends quite late and I leave the centre at about 2345. Next day work at 0700 end work at 1300. Went for class at bras basah at 1400 and ends at 1800. Rushed to Marine Parade for Gkidz at 1830 but I reached at about 1930. Ends at 2200. It was a wonderful experience and thank God that I'm able to go through it without falling apart.
Have a weird feeling about my menstration. Last month till now, my menses come 1 week and rest 1 week, come again rest again for 1 week. So weird! Lord, I hope I'm just thinking too much. Help me to not worry about anything. I believe that is because I'm too stress up. Now I realised what work life is and I understand a bit of the world. How people can just tell lie to protect themselves even in Christian's workplace.
Sometimes, I just felt like crying. That's the problem with me, I don't like to share my problems. Everytime I share my problems, something or someone will make me even more sad than my problems. So I learnt to only tell God and nobody else. I don't know whether is this right or wrong not to tell people. But I just felt more comfortable like this. That's why I prefer to not talk than talk non-stop. I can talk a lot if I want to but I just like it when I'm quiet.
I felt that that's me when I'm quiet even though sometimes it resulted in me being left out. Oh no! I think the devil is attacking me right now! God please help me not to feel emotional. I want to be happy with You! OK let me stop this right now.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Following Jesus
Sermon title: Following Jesus
Key Scripture: Matthew 4:18-22
Preacher: Rev. Edmund Chan
To be conform to the image of Jesus, we have to be transform.
The key to be Jesus' disciple is to follow Him.
~ What does "following Jesus" really mean?
1) To follow Jesus FULLY
*verse 20 & 22
Put down everything in your life and submit to Him.
2) To follow Jesus GLADLY
*verse 20 & 22 : immediately
There was a joy and it is a priviledge.
It's a call to joyous abandon.
It's a priviledge and a honor to serve God.
3) To follow Jesus ONLY
*verse 19
We have to abide in God only.
We "fly" in connection with Jesus.
Without Jesus, we can't fly at all.
When we abide in Him, He will make us fisher of men.
Key Scripture: Matthew 4:18-22
Preacher: Rev. Edmund Chan
To be conform to the image of Jesus, we have to be transform.
The key to be Jesus' disciple is to follow Him.
~ What does "following Jesus" really mean?
1) To follow Jesus FULLY
*verse 20 & 22
Put down everything in your life and submit to Him.
2) To follow Jesus GLADLY
*verse 20 & 22 : immediately
There was a joy and it is a priviledge.
It's a call to joyous abandon.
It's a priviledge and a honor to serve God.
3) To follow Jesus ONLY
*verse 19
We have to abide in God only.
We "fly" in connection with Jesus.
Without Jesus, we can't fly at all.
When we abide in Him, He will make us fisher of men.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Thank God
Thank God for showing His great love to me. Yesterday I was helpless and at the verge of crying. Every wednesday and thursday we are supposed to bring the mattresses of K1 and K2 from music room to classroom and back. Supposedly all the teachers are to help out, but don't know where are all the teachers. Ever since the K1 AT don't come for work, the K1 teachers kept asking me to help them to bring their mattresses too. While one teacher is working late shift, the other is staying in the office doing work. Well, they are busy, me too. I have my parent function and PTC to do. Just because I'm ok with everything and I'm an AT, they can order me around in doing things that they are supposed to do. If you want me to help, I'm ok, but u want me to do it ALONE and there you are doing your own work. Then who is going to help me with my work? Actually, seriously I'm ok with helping, but my manager and my teacher told me lots of things to protect myself. Then the other side, they are asking me to do their work. Anyway, I nearly break down, because I don't know how to say no when I'm supposed to.
After work, I went for prayer meeting and my cell and God cheer me up. They comfort me. God bring people and also during the prayer, they prayed for me. It's very tough staying in child care, but the children motivates me to be there with them. If I really want to quit, I would need to wait till they graduate. Today, God sent people to show me love again. The service-learning facilitator washed our feet and it was a great blessing that I was shocked when I heard that. At first I want to reject, but it is a blessing from God. So I shouldn't reject God's love for me, and I accept it. I'm learning how to receive from others. I really want to thank God for everything that happened to me in these past 2 weeks. It's a fruitful week. Hallelujah praise the Lord!
After work, I went for prayer meeting and my cell and God cheer me up. They comfort me. God bring people and also during the prayer, they prayed for me. It's very tough staying in child care, but the children motivates me to be there with them. If I really want to quit, I would need to wait till they graduate. Today, God sent people to show me love again. The service-learning facilitator washed our feet and it was a great blessing that I was shocked when I heard that. At first I want to reject, but it is a blessing from God. So I shouldn't reject God's love for me, and I accept it. I'm learning how to receive from others. I really want to thank God for everything that happened to me in these past 2 weeks. It's a fruitful week. Hallelujah praise the Lord!
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